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WHY ME!!!!!
right this is what happens in my life...
i fucking do perfect with this girl i like!....i invite her to my mums house for a meal and a date....if her exam results are good...
right so she discusses with her mum who then suggests oh infact, i could go there for dinner stay the night then the next day i take her to my mums and stay the night there... i was like yes sounds good!... it did!
then she got her results...
they were pretty good but not good enough for her mum....so her mum makes her choose between me staying last night or coming to my mums with me tomorrow, she chose coming with me tomorrow..
so i thought kl thats good...
so im free yesterday evening feeling optomistic.... my mate phones me...'seeing as your free, come to a football match ( i dont like football and i thought why not, something different)
so i pick him up.... we go ....the team win... had fun.... start journey back
so im feeling good... even though its dark and raining.... just crusing on the motorway (speedway) *in my mind* yes picking up stunning girl i feel good around and enjoy time with tomorrow... ready to move it to next level.... and then
BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in the middle of my headlights a fucking deer jumps and hits my car instantly.... then its bounces back and hits the car again and goes under..... my engine stops giving me power and my mates screaming and my cars smoking... damage was bad!
pulled up on grass waited for the recovery services.. 3 hours later car towed to garage and i'm not where i was expecting to be... back at my dads...
so i phone her this morning.... knowing i cant pick her up.... and had a plan to get trains and meet up which is fine... the public transport is good here...
no answer then an hour or so later... when im feeling anxious... cos im thinking i hope she follows through we like each other..
so she texts me.....'sorry. have been out with the horse, hows the car? '(THEN IT CAME)'Can we possibly go to your mums another time as i have no way of getting to the station. Parents are both working and i'm needed here. Sorry i keep changing the plans...
hope your ok from yesterday. x x x'
ARGHHHHHHHH!!
FUCK.
so i said to her i was going to suggest an evening train ( her parents would be back then) and but its ok if you dont want to... told her about how bad the car was etc... and thts it... shes really low on credit... in fact shes gone into debt with her contractor to send me tht last text... but i dont know if should just leave it go and see my mum myself and rearrange a meet with her another time... or phone her up later and see if she is upf or the evening train?.... any ideas?
BUT why me!...
suppose i'm lucky to be alive
keep spreading the love
~sierra~
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