I am currently on holiday in Greece and I am using my mates laptop. Anyway, the other night I got very drunk and I tried to kiss my friend who is a girl and she got very upset. I was sooo drunk I couldn't even remember doing it but I did and in the morning she said that she was very disappointed with me. She said that she has never liked me in the 4 years she has known me. I never liked her at first but over the past year I have started to like her more than just a friend. I think about her all the time and I've always wanted to tell her that I like her more than just a friend but just never had the balls. So I get drunk and try and kiss her instead! I have apologised loads of times to her and told her that I still wanna be friends with her but I fear that the damage has been done. She hasn't been talking to me since this happend and she is going to live in Amsterdam soon and I fear that I may never see her again.

In a way she has treated me like her gay best friend because she tells me all her sex stories and what guys she has f***** which really does my head in because the guys only use her for sex and don't wanna be with her. She is constantly saying how her boyfriends treat her like s*** but yet she still goes back for more. When we go clubbing she is constantly checking out other guys which also does my head in. She has sex with nearly every man that comes on to her and she even admits that she has very low standards. I really liked her and cared about her and I treat her with honour and respect. She says she looks fat but she doesn't look fat at all and I am always reasurring her that she is pretty and attractive.

Anyway, she went back home yesterday because she is starting her new job in Amsterdam soon and I am still here in Greece at my mates flat. He has been giving me a hard time about the whole situation and he even went out last night without whilst I stayed up drinking wine and watching tv till 2am. He is constantly saying that I've f***** up and I fear I might have lost him as a friend as well. He's been giving me a hard time about the whole situation and feel very lonely at the moment. I just wanna go home and see my mum and tell my mum what has happend. I feel like I need to leave my job and start a fresh as well because work is boring and repetitive and I feel that I need to make new friends because I fear that I've lost 2 of my most closest friends and I feel very sad that this has turned out like it has. I just wish I could turn the clock back and try to control myself.

I've got 2 days left and I just want leave ASAP and go home!

I know how you feel. And I didn't even have the convenient "I was so drunk I blacked out" excuse you do.

Two choices:

1) Tell her the truth, that you have come to care for her and feel attracted to all of the good qualities in her despite her flaws.

2) Tell her the truth, that the alcohol made you do stupid things and that you weren't control of your actions.

Of course either of these will need to be done face to face to have an effect. Sometimes, things just don't work out, and you lose friends. Learn from your experiences, and grow from them.

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