I have been meaning to make this post for a while. The reason I have been hesitating is because I was afraid people would judge me or hate me for it.

I think I am a psychopath. why? because I have no interest in people. when you talk to a girl, you are supposed to get to know her. well, I am not interested in getting to know her. I am not interested in what her favorite color is. I am not interested in why she decided to study psychology. This isn't about sex. I am not interested in knowing guys either. I think I just can't relate to people. people are all fake and I hate that.

in addition, when something good happens to someone, I get pissed off. when something bad happens, I get happy on the inside. For example, if someone gets into a good school, in my mind I hope he fails. If someone drops his cell phone and breaks the screen, I get happy on the inside like "mu ha ha ha ha"

I believe there is a certain group of people that I wouldn't mind knowing, like engineers and math people. The rest of the society are just stupid and I am not interested in what they have to say.

Why do I think I became like this? I could write a huge post about it, but nobody wants to read that. in a nutshell, I was bullied and stabbed in the back by classmates starting in the first grade. I dont want to get too graphic, but lets just say I was a jew living in a muslim country. just imagine that for a second.

so yeah, I hate people. Many times, I realize the reason I hate people is because I hate myself. when I see people, I just see my own flaws in them? if that makes any sense? Sometimes I like myself and I start to like other people. but that doesn't happen very often.

How can I fix this? or is this hopeless and I should just pay?

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I have not failed 10,000 times. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work. - Edison

fyi sent an alert to FBI.

I very rarely mention NLP, as I think it's LOADED with a bunch of pseudo scientific BS, however, there are some things in it that are fairly good at a type of self-brainwashing. I read a book, looooong ago, called "How To Get Lots of Money For Anything, Fast" By Stuart Lichtman. The claims it makes are ridiculous, but the process it gives you for instilling goals and behavior are quite good. It seriously goes off the rails somewhere around the mid 100s(personifying motivations).

There may be better books, but I've never read them. I purposefully used this system to become more positive. My nature is always to see the negative and troubleshoot. But I ironed that out in about 6 months and moved into the realm of relative(though still realistic) positivity. A big plus was still noticing the same flaws, but ignoring them unless I planned to actually do something about them(fix them). No point dwelling on bad stuff you do nothing about.

I still to this day, ignore people of below average intelligence. I'm internally quite elitist. It hasn't set me back in any noticeable way. I'm polite, but quite brief with people I view as inferiors. You really don't have to befriend everyone. You'll really only have a few true friends, and you can be quite picky about them.

I think what you need when it comes to friends and dating are more intellectual people. They aren't common, but probably not as rare as you may think. MENSA tends to skew older, but would be a good place to start. Astronomy clubs would be another good source. You'll rarely find people in astronomy clubs with IQs below 120.

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RSDTyler

The fact you made this post pretty much proves you are not a psychopath. Worrying that one is a "psychopath" shows they don't display psychopathic thinking.

There is nothing wrong with being anti-social to a certain degree. Quit watching CNN and thinking what they say is true. Even though humans are mostly social creatures, some people seek isolation and march to the beat of their own drum. That is fine.

Tendencies to lash out are in all humans. Most people learn to control such behavior in their mid 20's to early 30's. Animal instincts are within everyone. We just learn to control as we age. If you were a psychopath, by definition, you'd not care about these tendencies and feel its everyones problem who gets in your way.

You might be more intelligent than the average person, and get sick of seeing good stuff happened to them out of pure luck. Versus your own life, where you've had to work for what you have.

I think understanding the world is not a perfect place and everyone is not your friend is a good lesson. I can also relate to your cynical sense. I was up snowboarding the other day, and saw some guy try to close a hatchback on a $40K BMW with the skies sticking half out. He thought they would just slide in as he closed the hatchback. But they went right through the glass. "Mah hahahahahahahahaha!".

Good luck!