Dear respected forum users or simply put PUAs
I have a difficult time right now, and am hear to seek your help. Reason I am doing this is that back in 2005, I had same issue and was helped by fellow PUAs. Damn, its been 9 years since last time I was in sh*t. Just quickly introduce myself, am from London, UK, been involved in fast seduction, PUA, however you want to call it since 2003 (wow!). Since then I got myself a respected job, done degree and got into LTR.
Right, this is relationship related!
Now, recently I have been naughty and was visiting escorts for circa more than a year every two-three weeks. Somehow, my brain stopped working when I slept with this 21 year old Romanian girl (Im 29). Problems is as we now know, money, she is not doing it for fun. She has a boyfriend back in her homeland, a policeman!
I know that I am paying for time, but she gives such a ultimate girlfriend experience that I am certain it is not fake, but still I cant get her out of the flat/house. Also, I tried to mess her mind a bit regarding relationships, she went into really bad mood (she does not know that I know she has boyfriend, neither does boyfriend know what she is doing).
All in all, I cannot concentrate at work, I feel like I have fallen in love, yet my brain tells me it will never work out,, but not my heart. I have stupid thoughts as to get rid of her boyfriend and etc.
Gents, have mercy... Guide me!