first of all let me tell you that you are very brave man, talking about your heart beating and stuff. life is hard right?

things take a lot of time sometimes. you seem uncomfortable with women in general, i recommend just being more social slowly, do this by yourself, at a pace you are comfortable with, seriously. dating is very difficult if you come from an asian family and now live in the united states. asian parents step on your balls and prevent them from growing and american culture does not do this, so you have to compete with men who actually have been allowed to think for themselves. so yea, just learn to make friends with girls how you want to, if you're thinking about sex, it's okay just to masturbate. also, you're in america now!! talk to some white girls! i know you want to