| Hey,
Recently I've got really closer to that girl, I know her for about an year, living in the same neighborhood, going out with same friends, but we were never that close, until the last month.
I totally fall in love with her, cant think of anything but her, I became really close with her and not as just a "gay friend", but the problem is that we are too different.
I'm that "quality guy", who anyone knows as that responsiblity, mature friend, had good grades with plans for my future. Confident one but doesn't go for clubs and hunting girls, waiting for the one I really like. You know... Like all the perents of my friends feel safe about us hanging out just cuz of me.
In addition, religious guy.
She is completly the opposite, love to go to clubs, going out with boys, lot of flirtation...
Lets say that most of the perents of our friends doesnt feel comfortable when she is around.
I knew that my chances with her really low, because of our different culture, and I really tried to forget her. But that was impossible, we are always sitting together for hours, touching each other, texting... even if I try to avoid her I get a message from her and everyhing coming back.
Today I had a conversation with one of my best friend, she told him that she knows I love her(I already thought that she knew), and she doesn't know what to do about it cuz we cant be together, because we are too different and she used to other kind of people around her. And if I were more like her and not too different she would like to be with me. And that it's really strange for her that I changed so much recently cuz she never thought about me as someone who could be her boyfriend but recently I'm like another person. (Of course she told him not to tell me that, but...).
My friend was in shocked when he asked me about it I said it's true, like... "You?! HER?! You are much better than her, I always imagines you with a much qualitier girl".
And even now, that she knows that I love her, she still trying to keep our relationship, she is still texting me, sitting with me and touching me(I mean... REALLY touching, sitting hugged, hitting each other, etc.).
It feels like she really plays with me, It drives me crazy.
Before he tolds me that she knows how I feel, I thought that she suspect it and want to test it... maybe even there's a chance she will try a romantic relationship with me if she still keeping our relationship. But after I understood she knows for sure what I feel, it looks like she is just playing with me.
What do you think I should do? Do you think that I still have a chance with her, or it's a lost fight?
How to act with her now, when she knows how I feel?
Just to clear that point, we were in situations that with any other girl I was trying to kiss her for sure, we were really close recently but I stopped myself just cuz I knew that she will feel too strange to be with someone like me.
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