I won't sit here and say she isn't special because she was obviously special to you. That said there are a lot of very amazing women in this world and I promise there are plenty of other unique gems that may astound you.

Yeah sex is great but it's not what motivates you, that's a very ignorant statement. It should definitely not be some other out force that you need to drive you.

Last year I had a relationship end of 20 months. I was deeply in love with this woman. I still care about her on some level. Following the relationship I began to feel anxious. I was in an indescribable amount of pain, I would have done anything to get her back. That said, I was a needy little bitch. I fell deeply for her and at some point i stopped giving a shit about me and what I want. I stopped doing me and because of that she fell out of love with me... after all I wasn't the same dude she fell for.

Following the relationship I fell into a deep depression, it took me about 8 months to get going to be honest. At which point I put myself on a depression program, I began to do a daily list of actions to help get me out of my depression, that recovery took another 3 months to keep as a habits daily. I did start dating in the middle of the depression program, which i still came across as needy because I had more shit to work out.

Mind you I was banging a different girl the whole time, so it's not like I wasn't getting any on the side and I had others interested in me. So I know what you're going through. It's not that you don't realize there is plenty of pussy out there. The chick I was banging on the side was so chill she gave me a bj before I hung out with my Ex so I wouldn't go crazy (went to comic con SDCC with her because we owned the tickets in advance).

The reality is you have to do a ton of shit for you. Not for sex, and sex certainly shouldn't be your motivation for anything else from working out to choosing your style to whatever else. The things you do should always be for yourself. The moment I lost track of me and felt unhappy was when I stopped doing shit for me. The moment i didn't do my hobbies anymore. I didn't do me anymore.

Are you going to do your hobbies for you? Are you surrounding yourself with the right people? Are you out doing your own hobbies loving you?

You need to be the basis all the evolution in you, not some outer being or influence or you're not being you. You need to be the best and most authentic you that you can be.

I discourage dating girls into porn I see it as a negative not a positive. My ex was into porn and her sex drive was super fucking weird. I discourage porn overall. She had an unreasonable outlook on sex, it fucks you over mentally.

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