But at this point, I'm not interested in being a charming gentleman. I have rage. I want to get drunk and cuss girls out for all the hell they've put me through.

Also, on the topic of being "so charming."

I have bits and pieces where I can be that if the stars are magically aligned.

But at this point, I'm not interested in being a charming gentleman. I have rage. I want to get drunk and cuss girls out for all the hell they've put me through.

I don't want to introduce myself by my middle name because I don't give a fuck what they in the first place.

I would rather shove it down their throats. Whatever that means.

A few nights ago, I got kicked out of a bar for calling girls whores when I was drunk. They told me not to go back there. I've been banned from 4-5 local bars.

All this being said, I looked around tonight.... and I didn't see other guys wooing the pants off these girls. Other guys were just ordering drinks, watching TV.... so I might be better than those guys, at least!!!!

Of course, there are always the guys at the tables with girls already with them.

I can't wait until I can drink again.... I just want to go out and get trashed and see what happens. Take a cab home. I probably won't even talk to anyone.

It really sucks that the past will follow me forever, and even if I do manage to get something out of this life, it will be tainted anyway.

Some wife to beat??? Then call her a prostitute and ask her to suck my deformed dick that I haven't taken the bandages off yet?

You're done here.