So I got my first girlfriend and relationship. Most convoluted experience ever. There is no respite here, only anger and misery.

I attempted using pick-up to seduce her.

We spent six months together, and we only began having sex at the end of it. She was a true histrionic and bipolar, and was only after me because of my money and connections.

In the end, one of my friends stole her from me as a fuck buddy under the perfect guise of 'helping me to get rid of her'. He has social approval because she was being a completely uncontrollable bitch (as are most histrionics). He knew enough to steal her and look good about it, and nearly had the cheek to ask for monetary compensation for his 'help'.

Tldr; I'm essentially a loser who almost got cheated by my ex, and definitely got cheated by my friend. What's worse is my ex-friend is shorter than me (he is a fucking 163 cm midget) and has a belly, and he somehow STILL beat me.

I have no actual 'game' to speak of. She actually has more game than me. I went into it blind, managed to lose my virginity somehow (probably because she was a confused desperate slut, and not because I was good at deduction-in fact, she, like most HPDs ended up seducing me along the way).

I grieved for the first couple of hours post-break up, not realizing the depth or gravity of the situation, but this morning my brain realized what had happened (they both threw up extremely good smokescreens, either that or their lies were bad and I was too blind to see through them).

Worst experience ever. And yet, also most humbling experience ever. My heart fears going back into the game because it has been so recently hurt, but my brain is angry and desperate to make up for my failure.

How should I rectify this? And where should I go? I'm 21, I feel late as fuck to the game. The ex friend who cuckolded me is 17 this year.

I was bought up with NO social experience and confined to the house until the age of 16. I am not looking for comfort. I am angry and red pill as shit right now. My other friends have been trying to blue pill me for the past day ('play video games to feel better'), I am horribly tired and will fucking butcher and strangle the next person who offers me blue pill advice.

I need to dig my way out of the incel hole that my parents dropped me into head-first. I am awkward and creepy. I need to learn to read people, like I am worse at it than a five year old. I need resources. What. Do. I. Do.

First I want to comment on two things. You call yourself a loser. Don't do that. You have identified your problems and seem to be willing to deal with them. That's what I would call a winning attitude. You are a winner. Give yourself that credit!

Second, your age is nothing. And I mean NOTHING! Trust me on this one. Your brain is not even fully developed yet! It will be when you are around 25. The last "features" it develops is the ability for long term planning, like planning a life strategy, planning things years ahead. I have coworkers that are in their 40s and 50s and still have no game whatsoever, and are probably still virgins. They are complete losers. Never compare yourself to others, but if you still want to (because we all do that anyway) compare yourself to those who are worse than you. They will make you feel better about yourself.

Give yourself a few days to grief, and do whatever you feel like. And please overdo your griefing to comic levels. If you like comfort eating, make sure to fill your face completely as you go "I'm such a looooooooser!". Make sure to smudge out the food really nice in your face and on your clothes. Exaggerate everything. Feel sorry for yourself and do it properly.

When you can't take yourself seriously any longer, you go out and pick up some girls. Now you have a funny story to tell them as well.

You need to let go. Learn from your mistakes, but don't beat yourself up over it. Forget about your ex, she was a crazy bitch. In case you have not done so yet, lash out at the midget (and no, I don't care about his social connections) and tell him what a gigantic dickhole he is and why exactly you think so. Then cut him out of your life.

And what you do next is pretty clear, no? You sit down. You lurk this forum. You read this post and study some of the recommended lectures. And then you get out to the field, armed with your newly gained knowledge and actually train it until you are socially callibrated and succesful.
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Bonus points if you sign up at a gym and get jacked and invest some time and money into your fashion.

As for your age... I wish I had started PUA as early you did (I am 25). Never underestimate what you can accomplish in one year. And trust me, once you have enough lays under your belt, this will all look like a joke to you.

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That may be the funniest thing I've ever read.

I was 30 before I even seriously tried dating, 32 before I discovered PUA and lost my virginity. I _wish_ I'd gotten into it at 21!

As to the rest, like others are saying start reading some of the PUA stuff. A lot of the inner game stuff especially... this doesn't sound like a girl you should be upset at losing. It sounds like a girl you should have run away from, and handed her to your midget friend since they appear to deserve each other.

21 is a great age to get into this stuff.

I was mid-to-late 20s when I got into it... Missed so many opportunities, looking back on it.

It usually takes an experience like this one to make you realize you need to make a change and take control.

Welcome to the forums. Lots of knowledge here... Learn and get better.