So next month is my 5 years high school reunion, the girl i had a crush on will be there. Problem is i was her orbiter for close to 5 years(we went to the same college after high school) and i am rely not sure how i feel about her anymore. From one point i guess i should be thankful to her because she was in part responsible for my transformation, on the other hand part of me is angry she strung me along all this years, and i am still not sure how much of it was my doing and how much was hers. Then there is the thing about how i should act. I mean i would like to play cool but am i playing cool because i am rely cool or is it because i want to show her how cool i am. My biggest fear is i will slip back into the friend mode, but of course doing nothing was what landed me in the friend zone in the first place so if i do nothing am i back in there by default. And rely i am pretty sure i want nothing to do with her, even if i got her the way i always wanted there is just too much history between us and i would be in constant danger of returning to old habits. Part of me just wants to seduce and dump her(and be done with it) but that would be a dick move and i am not a dick. Please help.

She didn't string you along or anything like that.

You just got a crush, acting feminine and shit. Real men don't get crushes.

5 years now.....just let it go. At the reunion, just talk to any girl and have fun.