Here is me.

I am 20 years of age. Technically a virgin. I've had a few instances where girls have literally sat on my dick, yet it didn't seem right to me. I've ate out a girl. I've had one relationship that lasted for a few weeks, made-out with a handful of girls.

So to recap, I'm the opposite of the extroverted alpha-dominant PUA you all strive to be.

During high-school, I was quite awkward. I didn't even talk to girls. I was the shy kid.

However, at the same time, I realized early on that girls found me attractive or "cute". Ever since I've been at least fifteen, girls would constantly stare me directly in the eyes. Through the grape vines, I heard of girls who had crushes on me. Some that were stunning. I still punch myself knowing that my true love was deeply infatuated with me (I accidentally heard her say this) and I didn't even say a word to her. This was in Grade 11.

However.. as opposed to highschool

I am confident. I don't mind saying anything to anyone, and rather do not care what anyone thinks. Once I read through this site once I learned of the Apocalypse Opener I went out and tried it with little anxiety.

But that doesn't matter.

I still don't know anything about attraction. I've tried to find something on this site, and perhaps it has helped a bit but it hasn't helped really.

I don't know how to approach a women at all. I don't know how to flirt with them. I don't know when I'm supposed to touch them, and I don't know when the hell I'm supposed to look them in the eyes.

I am a robot that hasn't been given any programming. I don't even know how to compliment women.

The biggest annoying question is what I do with all the pretty women who look at me? Do I smile back at them? They usually turn their heads quickly when I look at them.

What about in a classroom environment? The girl staring at me from the side, do I look at her in front of the whole class and smile at her? And how do I open in a classroom environment?

Secondly why isn't their a simply guide that tells you what to do from scratch. What to open with, what to do with eye and hand signals, how to touch a girl (kino), and how to initiate a make out easily? All of these sites are mind bogglingly confusing. Not to mention, you have to read through 10,000 pages and process about 10,000 facts.

Last of all. I am not an asshole. I was watching some videos by mystery. He will say things like this. Girl: I am into violin. Mystery: I actually play the violin, that's crazy. I can't talk to you now. What do you do when you can't bring yourself to say something like this without feeling sick and disgusted inside?

Give up?