The looks, i got them. the body language? i got that to. peacocking? girls love my style. talking to girls and keeping a conversation? check. im always surrounded by women, heck i even have my own fan club.

so whats my problem? i hold back ALOT. or aleast if feel like i have, and its starting to take its toll.

you see, i recently got out of a serious relationship, someone i truly fell in love with, and sense then ive been celibant (hadnt had sex by choice) in nearly 8 months. The reason being because i knew if i wouldve gotten into another relationship, it wouldnt erase my feelings for her. but anyway, im ready to have fun!

all my life ive been always been the heavy thinker, non social, and now im ready to live my life and have fun while i still can.

so what is a way i can just let loose?

ask captain morgan

captain morgan?

i dont drink or smoke. its not me

haha I was kidding. captain morgan is alcohol. you don't think or smoke thats fine.
but its been 8 months... which isnt very recent haha. youve solo'ed yourself enough. she has probably gotten over it too.
you know what you want. you want to have some fun with new girls. you seem to be good with the ladies, so

if you know what you want, why hold yourself back?

yah but i see her pretty often. for what happened, i kill her with silence, dont say a word to her. dont even look her way.best way to drive a woman crazy =)

And to be honest, im scared. scared to loose friends, scared of what the people that care about me think. me personally dont like to harm anyone.

so i know i have plenty of girls that like me, but i hold back when it comes to escalating sexually, not because i dont know how, its simply because i hold back.

but i want to take control of my life, ive grown so much stronger than ive ever been for the past couple of months i wanna have fun, have sex with a attractive women.

and another thing, im not down with the whole "smash and dash". its something i despise and will never do.

reason being because i have a sister who had that done to her, and now she cant live her life the way she wants to because she has a baby daddy who doesnt take care of his child, and i help her out as much as i can.

so if i could establish the way i want to live without the "smash and dash", ill completly let go of my fears.

Why don't you get another girlfriend then

because i wont settle for anything less of what i want. i know what i want and how i want it. intil then, i will keep looking intil i find the one for me. i just wanna have a little fun of my own on the way.

Hahah that's called masturbation bro