well, i ain't that fucked up in my social circle
im just not satisfied with it
heres the reason.

i first knew the community two years ago and actively try out the game when i entered college
i neg and made fun on girls a lot
girls either loved me or hated me
i thought i was better than being a nice, dull guy tho
problem was i overdo the neg and i was generally seen as too sarcastic/critical
which i know you definitely dun wanna be in the social circle you belong to.

i can be fun, but usually in dry humor which not a lot of girls appreciate or otherwise im not doing it quite well
its kind of hard to associate/connect with sb
im generally the top guys in the stream but there are distinctively few guys who are high-energy and have strong character (either very funny or very alpha)
so girls are around them like magnet and occasionally leave me

i've been dating different girls in college in my stream due to my time constraints (too busy)
there's not problem for me to isolate and go on dates
but i wasn't good at physically escalating before so it can be quite strange when i do it now.

i am very aware of that gaming girls in your social circle = gaming without opening
maybe i just need tremendous improvement in mid-game.
i tried to observe the very funny and very alpha males, doesn't fit my personality tho
im more of a low-energy man and in between two types mentioned above
does that make me an average guy?

another question is IOIs are getting ambiguous
i used to regard stroking hair, asking me questions, smiling and blushing as IOIs
but when it comes to girls we have known for some time (im sure not in friend zone tho coz we barely talk, but just know each other), i found the IOIs very unclear

im not sure whether its just being friendly or what.

how do you guys identify in this occasion?