| Well, the same girl who wanted to kill me months ago...
...is now touching me, going up to me at random, and smiles when I'm around her.
And, I feel as if I'm growing weaker, and wimpier. I think she's noticing, and is tuning out. Yet, when I ignore her, she comes back 2x fold.
Honestly, fuck this crap man.
This whole seduction business is fucking annoying as hell.
It really is.
Why cant a guy and girl just fuck? It can't be that fucking complicated.
I act like a total douchebag, and girls WITH THEIR BOYFRIENDS IN TOW chase me. I feel like shit. Really, I do.
Like, I really do have to be a piece of shit to get girls to like me. It's fucking disgusting man.
I feel as if I can never be a nice person to women; otherwise, I'm no better than a dickless eunuch.
I'm missing something. I really am.
And quite honestly, I'm fucking annoyed. Not pissed, or angry...just fucking annoyed.
Here's my situation:
Either:
A)I'm an asshole to women, and get sexual attention
or
B)I'm normal, kind, and don't get the attention I want.
To get pussy, I have to be a douche.
This is revolting and sickening to me. It really is.
The sad thing is, I can be a douche to girls while still being myself. I thought I knew everything on getting girls, and I do...
...but it doesn't matter, because I cant seem to USE any of it.
On "her"...her boyfriend is a douche. He's scared of me, and he can't even look me in the eye, and he's been dating this chick for 3 years. He isn't fucking worthy. I own that motherfucker without raising a fist.
The girl gravitates to me, tugs my arm, tickles me, wanders by me, talks to me about stupid crap, and...
...I choke. I fucking choke. I'm scared of losing her man. I'm scared of losing her to that fucking amoeba waste of a BF she's with right now. I KNOW...that this mode of thought will end up making me lose her, but dammit man...
...I have feelings for this girl. Serious ones.
Is it really that wrong and "wussy" to have genuine feelings for a girl you like?
Is it really that wrong to SHOW A GIRL YOU LIKE HER? Who invented these fucked up games man? I can play the game, but each time I do it, I feel emptier, as if kindness and that sense of care and love SIMPLY DONT FUCKING EXIST ANYMORE!!!!!!!!
I need help guys. But, I need help from someone who knows what the fuck is going on. I need help from someone who pulls 3-6 girls a week. I have no money to pay for value, but I can offer this: I will listen to whatever you tell me, 100%, as long as I know, by God, that it works.
I need the truth.
...how do I get the girl of my dreams?
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