basically i'm frustrated......looking for feedback (positive or negative)



well tonight i went out solo,
ended up meeting up with a girl i've been hooking up with for the past couple weeks, then 2 hours after meeting her friend leaves and then 30 mins later she says shes got to go, so before she leaves we make out, it took me that long to pull the trigger with a girl i know thats into me. problem 1

problem 2--- a girl that i've always seen at parties recognizes me and playfully teases me saying she knows what school i went to. but due to the previous girl being with me i just brushed her off, hoping to 'bump' into her later when the girl i was with wasn't around... when i did break away to look for her she was gone...opportunity missed

when the girl i was with left i decided to stay at the club and try sarge only group i did engage i ejected prematurely cause there was a guy in the set and i though, my targets probably with him,

then i decided to bounce solo to another club, turned out i knew a few ppl there, talked, danced

when i went to the bar some chick sort of stepped back onto me, instead of using that as a way to engage her she said sorry and i replied "thats ok", then waited to see what she would do... seriously i look back now and think wtf i could have busted her on hitting me, playfully negged her for being 'drunk' anything

the only positive i can think of tonight was i stayed out solo instead of just going home when my group left,

i'm just really disappointed in the fact i'm not progressing and taking it to the next level, i dont want to kid myself with the fact that i occasionally pick up the chick that opens me or i approach once in a blue moon,

i want to feel ok with rejection and i guess typing this is one way to address the fucken problem i have with taking it to the next level.

been a year in the game, probably hooked up with and fooled around with 30+ girls since i was 13, i'm turning 21 in 1 and a half months and i want to loose my v-card...i'm sick and tired of hooking up with the girl i have to learn how to take it further and push myself to open more girls cause right now i dont want a relationship and basically a relationship type girl is the only way i can see myself getting laid


had to get this off my chest

sorry for the rant