Okay so here is my problem. Before getting into the pua community I was like most everybody else a huge afc. I was overweight, and most definetly did not have an attractive lifestyle.and I did not know how to talk to women ( cant claim im uber good at it now..) so let's flash forward I lost nearly 30+ pounds almost exactly a year ago, low and behold the ladies definitely noticed. I was basically forced to make the jump from no "sexual" female contact to suddenly girls checking me out all the time, grabbing my ass, flirting etc.... Not at all easy. Then one girl HB7, definitely pretty slutty that I had known for a long time insisted on taking my number, then minutes later told me she wanted to fuck (more civily of course.) I had no idea what was going on and basically ended the night with a really sloppy makeout session that I could have easily escalated to sex. now lets flash forward a little bit more. I finally lost my virginity to an HB 9 which I was pretty proud of after a couple more fuckups with some random girls and after discovering the community and at least learning the basics of sexual escalation or however you want to put it, at least enough to get a girl into bed. But this has really fucked with my head needless to say, I still have pretty poor personal image of myself and my inner game is not where it should be. People tell me I look great all the time, but I still have doubts. mostly this is a vent I dont really know what any words can do for me as it seems to be something I will get more calibrated to as I aquire more experience.

good vent! and congratulations... check out fear of success posts, cos i think there are some doubts in your mind and you need to get rid of them. If girls are saying to you, or showing you they like you then they mean it. In my experience girls are a bit more straight up than guys in a round about way, thats why theyre always getting told they bitch. So yeah we might not know what they want but if theyre telling you what youve got is good then believe it.

Tip: if its an insecurity thing, leave it till the bedroom. Iv got physical problems, but i forget about them until its too late and we're going for it and then ill just tell her and she'll usualy say that im not too big or whatever. See its easier than dealing with something thats clearly hanging over you, all you do is delay it.

but also do you want it to be that easy? maybe thats why you didnt pull the trigger?!

I really like your post man, definitely some wisdom in there. And I think your right, deep down inside I am definitely pretty insecure due to my lack of experience, not necessarily anything physical. And you are right on the peg, I hate things when they come to easily, and that first almost-lay was not really what I was expecting or wanting.

I recommend you focus on "sexual confidence" as your next step. Acceptance confidence in the bedroom/car/tent/bathroom/jacuzzi makes you feel like you can give a woman the gift of a mindblowing sexual experience thats like no other. God/Jesus/Allah/Gaia/Zeus/Essence has created you as a unique powerful sexual creature built to fulfill the passionate lust of any woman. Just try internalizing this feeling and Im sure your seductions will smooth out a lot.

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