I met a girl this weekend, i kissed and numberclosed and really was mostly in control. I added her to msn, because i was'nt ready to give her my number, i had to go through a screening process with her to see what she was like.
I kept up some of the C&F and spiced it out, the first day i did most of that. But at the end she wanted me to send a picture of me and her taken that weekend. I said no i don't want you to have it, and when she got upset i said goodbye and logged of.
The seond day i logged on at about eleven, and she had been waiting online the whole night. She got a much better grip this time as i was flattered by some of her ioi's. Still i tend to fill in silent pauses in the msn interaction with either C&F or Bragging/sharing details about my life. The two latter became abundant throughout, and even though i was controlling the interaction, i sendt her the picture and she logged of first.
The third day; I don't know what to do when <3<3<3 starts comming up, so i usually just do it back, toned down (sweet <3). but now she wanted to do everything, i still had'nt arranged a meeting and she was starting to become a waste of time. I had a last shred of controll i thought when she wanted to see my youtube account, i told her she had to make an account and subscribe first. She refused at first but then she did, and for jumping through my hoop, she got the reward.
But here is the big thing, i realized she had been getting several things from me. either she made me want to give it to her, or she found some pressure point, usually negs that i shrugged of, or she played hurt/mad.
The thing she wanted last, a webcam session for only ten seconds, i said no. She then said ok gotta go. then as a last little thing she said, "reno? are you rrrrrrrrrrrusty?" i said "like a nail, wtf?" BIG MISTAKE, i just gave her a large chunk of my social status, cus now she had a button to push, and i don't know how to react to word's and accusations i don't understand and have lost serious status before! She wen't on using it, and said " do you feel like a looser, since you don't understan what rrrrrrrusty means?" "yeah sure, log of crazy woman". "I'll tell you if you put on the webcam" i said no, go to bed or i'il block you. she answered some shit, and an emoticon
and i blocked her.
The point here is, she pushed a button (good trick too, i'm taking it) and i think she knows i'm not the guy my first impression (usually great btw) said. i still haven't given her my phone number, and i'm unsure of how to either get out of this thing without having a button to push in the future, we will probably meet again, or getting past this and regaining controll.
She pushed my button bigtime, i need to learn to react like she didn't or this will be a sticking point forever
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