Recently something happened that never happened to me talking to a hot girl. I'm in high school and a friend of mine brought over this hot girl, I was talking it up with her, making her laugh, and then I said this stupid question I pulled out of my ass.

She is a cheerleader so I asked "How are the cheerleaders here?" and she gave me this look like a "wtf" look and said "What?" and all of a sudden when I figured out I didn't know how to explain it, and that this was the moment I thought I screwed up, I felt almost frozen, It's never happened to me before. Ever. I felt rushing to my face and this nervousness I hadn't felt before. I said "nothing." like an afc and she continued with the "What?" and that look. My friend told me to explain it to her. And I tried my best to snap out of it and explain it.

Anyway another situation is where I'm in one of my elective classes, and this HB 9.5 is sitting not to far away, I ask for her name after she handed her papers to me a few times (we had to rotate them around) and she said her name and I replied with "Oh ok I'm Carlos." But I said my name so fucking low and it felt like I said it with no confidence and I turned to pass her paper while saying it like an awkward dumbass.

I have no problem whipping up the best conversations and such with 7's and 8's. But 9's and 10's I get so fucking awkward and don't know why. I've even talked to a GROUP of more than 4 girls at this college once by myself and was fine, and their attention was all on me. But for some reason I get so awkward around 9's and 10's and nervous. Makes no sense. I was getting somewhere with this 9 (I like to aim for the hottest of hot girls, even though I still get that awkward shit most times.) But then today I see her holding hands with a guy so I'm like fuck it. They were probably dating, she's super hot. I wanted to get to her first but I guess I didn't see her enough.

Any explanations and improvements I can make? I feel like I have confidence, I'm a good actor though so even if I don't I am good at imitating that I do. (Even though I'd prefer to get confidence from within.) I can perform a speech in front of a lot of people even if my heart is racing and make it seem like I'm perfectly calm.

I like to look at it like, when I'm dead it won't matter anyway so just do it. But I still get nervous and awkward. Where did this come from? is it a self esteem thing?

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Stay confident, be positive, and define your own reality.

i think most of us at some point feel that AA when it comes to the hottest of hottest chicks.
but hey the more you do it the less you feel awkward. Don't over think your interactions with these chicks.
the more attention you put into your convos/interaction the less present you are in the moment and chicks notice that it just not appealing for them..
if you fuck up just continue as if nothing has happened, don't apologize simply keep talking and don't come back to it.. this way you will appear more confident to the people around you.

the best solution for you to fix that AA is make some HB9-10 your friends and hangout with them a alot.

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