soo…basically ive been “talking” since about 9 months back…I was too pussy in the beginning to do anything but initially ( like the first month) we would have text convos for days, talk on the phone till 4am. Then It slowed down because I started to rlly like her and I became an asshole to her (I do that sometimes unintentially). I took her out a couple times but never made a move because, again, I was too pussy back then. I took her to my high school prom (im not in college, we met half way through my senior year) and at the end of the night SHE had to kiss me because I was too afraid to do anything. After that I basically stopped ttalking to her all summer cause she got involved with another guy. At the end of the summer I saw her at a small get together at a friends house, I took her outside and into my car everyone thought we went outside to hook up, but I pussied out again and didn’t make a move. forward to now, im in college 4 hours away. We exchange a couple texts on two separate occasions throughtout the first couple weeks of school (one being a happy bday that stemmed into a convo, and then the other being a one txt back and fourth about something I spray painted onto a tree at her house-she started both convos). But then she randomly texted me about a month into school and she ends up asking me if when I come home from school we can make cupcakes together (her bday gift to me) I somehow sexualize it and we end up settling on hanging out and fucking while baking the cupcakes (these were the plans, obviously not going to actually happen, she just talked about it). then two weeks later I randomly text her one night we talk for alittle,and then that weekend out of the blue I end up going home. I text her in the morning “daddys home” and we end up making plans to hang out that night. I take her out, she tells her parents im taking her out to dinner (something I personally don’t think she needed to do, the part about saying she’s going out with me or even the legit date part-so I feel like this indicates something more serious) and by the end of the night we end up in my car her on top of me in the drivers seat making out(i made the move lol), her shrit off for 2 hours. I tried to take her pants off and she took my hands off her jeans button. She was sooooooooo into it. she apparently was dying for this chance to make out with me from the way it seemed. (im just glad the few random hu’s I had in college so far gave me the confidence to just not give a fuck finally and make the move). She told her mom she wouldn’t be home any later then 10, I dropped her home at 1140 and then she texted me “☺” after when I checked my phone when I got home. I reallyyyyyyy wanna keep this girl, I want to be with her over my breaks and summer. But since Im so far up here I don’t know how to go about it. there is definitely a delicate balance for this situation. Ideally I would like to be in a relationship with her(a togetherness, not rlly bf and gf cause thats too complicated amongst all this). The thing is though that idk what I should do just to keep her around which is my primary concern for now. If i don’t text her at all shell feel like I just used her for a hu, and then if I just tet her when im home shell prob feel like a bootycall. If I text her a lot its weird, but whats a good interval to keep in contact with her?? or like how do i go aout this in general...i rlly like her and want to be with her, but i wanna do it right.

the hook up happnd this past saturday night, i texted her and we had a small convo on sun, then i texted her again on wednesday and we had a decent convo.

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