Okay so here it goes. A long time ago, before I decidedly entered the route of PUA there was one girl who I developed a severe infatuation for. We made out the first night we met at a Halloween party and the night following was met with stupid AFC. Guess I didn't know where to go from there and I made it awkward instead of taking charge. I asked her out but she said no.
Six months later we meet at my friend's 21st birthday party, the day after I realized I still had feelings. Well, fast forward a month or two and I finally develop the balls to ask her out (Very stupid I know..). So we ended up going on two dates. The first was alright, should have kissed her but whatever; and the second was awesome. Basically she shit tested me with a what are you looking for deal and I failed.
Well, a few weeks passed and my feelings for her went down a good deal. We met up for my friend's birthday and I made the night the FR is here:
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K so I invite her over for movie night and she says yes. I really didn't think about this situation as a date as my feelings had faded greatly. It was sort of a one last try deal. Well we ended up talking like we always do while watching some awesome flicks, and eventually I tell her what is posted in this thread:
a-meditation-on-struggle-vt24770.html. I kept the same frame and well I guess it really hit her. I told her I don't regret any of it because it made me strong, which is the truth.
Eventually we ended up talking about the second date conversation. She said she doesn't want to date me because "well you're my best..or one of my best friends and I'm afraid of ruining that through a bad breakup." I told her that I'm the kind of guy who would get over it and our friendship would be intact. We ended up flirting a lot and spooning on the couch while having our awesome conversations. I would have gone for the kiss but it just didn't feel right I guess so I waited. She ended up leaving and on the way out I did go for it. However, she pulled away saying "sorry, no" I just pulled the confident laugh deal and said "alright no problem." I sent her a text saying "I guess I just wanted to try one last time before moving into the friend zone completely. You're a great girl and I hope you find what you're looking for."
Well, I have moved on and my feelings for her are mostly dead. Guess I'll wonder what if but I have plenty of other females in my life so she's no longer the end-all be-all deal. Hope this helps a bit, please destroy my game so I'll learn for the future.
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