I don't know if this is the right place to post it but here it goes.

Call it Oneitis, Desperation or anything else you want. I want to fuck this girl again. I lost my virginity to her and the experience sucked due to whiskey and weed dick. I tried contacting her and there were many flakes. At last, I even sent a straight up booty text and then asked her if there was anyway we can meet. No replies to the last two. It was retarded of me and I wish I can go back and change it, but I can't. I have been having dreams about her (I just woke from a dream with her) for the past week and I just have to have sex with her again. Please, please help me. I know it looks like a lost cause but I am sure there must be someway of bringing it back. She was obviously really attracted to me. The mistake I think I did was, I did not recognize her in the college a couple of times due to her looking entirely different (I realized this in retrospect). I am still keeping up with other chicks but this one is bothering me like crazy.

For my actual "Lay Report": http://mindfap.blogspot.com/2013/05/1-l ... -dani.html
(It is personal blog, I am writing to document my exploits, changes and growth as a person.)

I really hope there is something that can be done. She was hot, into me, smart and the artsy type. I am such a fool for not recognizing her. She is also impacting my inner-game and distracting me a lot. Thank you very much for reading this far and hopefully you can suggest something that can be done.

This is a lost cause man. Quit the weed, alcohol and all that shit. Don't over-reflect upon yourself; people get too much time for that nowadays, it only feeds narcissism. Cut back on that shit man, get your act together. Don't beat yourself up emotionally because you didn't recognize chick. Just get your life in order before you pursue PUA.