Hey guys,

Yeah its been a long time and I feel that I really need to get back to the olden days. My current situation is a bit of a shit one as this I know has happened a lot to many of you, but this is my story:

I was in my prime with my game. I was doing good for myself and my game was brilliant and I felt so Alpha and people could see that too. Then I met this girl that did not fall for one of the things I learned. It amazed me that we just hit it off so good without me really gaming her with what I have learned. To make a long story short we ended up dating for 3 years. It had its up and downs like all relationships do. We lived together too but after a while it just became a routine being with her. It felt shit as I asked her to marry me and we would have been married in October this year. Everything was paid for the wedding the honeymoon and I mean everything. So one day she told me that she went to her aunts function and that she will be late but she will be home. That did not happen she did not come home that night. I started to feel angry and sad at the same time. A women that wants to spend her life with you does not simply stay away from her fiance if there is not another guy involved.

We had a huge fight about why she did not come home. And she told me she needed time to think about us. So I told her to get the fuck out of our apartment I will make that decision easier for her. "I need to think about us." the words no guy ever wants to hear. We broke up about a month ago she took all the stuff we bought together when I was working. + point is she left me with massive amounts of dept! Awesome being a guy lol we still pay for shit and they go to the next money house.

Yes I will not lie. I became such an AFC it fucking irritated the shit out of me. I tried being alpha about the situation. But the heart did not agree with what I was trying to thinking. Now that Gentleman hit my confidence in such a way that I feel like nothing. Just dirt on her red stilettos. FUCK!

Its been a month later since all this shit took place. So me and my friends went to our local watering hole the one night we had a blast played Foosball and partied hard we sat down at a table with my friends brother and there was this HB8 short, dark hair, amazing lips that you could make u want to kiss her the whole fucking night. She had a lot of guy friends with her but she kept staring at me we just exchanged glances and it felt awesome that a girl was looking at me and everything inside me screamed to open this girl and start gaming her. BUT the worst part was I just smiled at her and my friends brother opened her and the end of the night she kissed him and he got the number but when she was kissing him she would stop a bit and just give him a hug and look my way over his shoulder.

My rule was when any HB looks at you and smiles you should open her don't be a pussy and do it but hey the things in my mind are so fuctup with my ex that I did not even know with what to open with! I normally go direct with my openers and never look back. But the confidence is not there yet. I am not saying that there are no girls in my life but don't know why I froze you cant simply just forget what you learned its impossible maybe I was rusty maybe not so fuckit just wanted to let it out on the interweb! lol