Stealth7081 (10:18:32 PM): Sup
Girl****** (10:18:39 PM): Hi
Stealth7081 (10:21:58 PM): damn, the little window didn't flash
Stealth7081 (10:22:29 PM): I tried leaning spanish but not really good - i know some german but not that much
Girl****** (10:24:20 PM): I never took Spanish or French in highschool.
Girl******* (10:24:28 PM): My grandmother taught me the italian I do know
Stealth7081 (10:25:07 PM): what words do you konw - maybe you can teach
Stealth7081 (10:25:18 PM): i read how to say beautiful - is it Bella
Girl******* (10:25:23 PM): It is
Girl***** (10:25:28 PM): What do you want to know how to say?
Stealth7081 (10:25:41 PM): what is your name? and how are you
Girl********* (10:26:36 PM): Well its shorter than that, because everything doesnt translate excatly.
Girl****** (10:26:50 PM): And I've also learned a certain slang.
Girl******* (10:27:09 PM): Hard to tell you how to pronounce it over the computer too
Stealth7081 (10:27:49 PM): well, when ever you and I hang out - u can teach me how's that
Stealth7081 (10:28:33 PM): you know the Sims 2 Game? I had problems installing it. So, I downloaded Sim 2 Deluxe
Girl******(10:29:04 PM): Work any better?
Stealth7081 (10:29:12 PM): i didn't install it yet
Stealth7081 (10:29:40 PM): i've been busy writing my book - so far corrected some things and added some more material in it
Girl******* (10:30:31 PM): What are you writing a book about?
Stealth7081 (10:32:05 PM): it's an autobiography about how no matter how rough you have it in life - you can still pull through and there's always hope
Stealth7081 (10:32:40 PM): It's more about struggling with Fetal Alcohol Spectrum disorder and Depression and how it's possible to over come some of the obstacles
Stealth7081 (10:33:38 PM): i don't wanna get boring on ya - but. so far people said it's good! I like to use humor in everything i try to get across like when I'm at Northwestern Medical School speaking about the effects of Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder.
Girl****** (10:34:12 PM): Wow...
Girl******(10:34:18 PM): No, thats not boring at all.
Girl****** (10:34:25 PM): Its really intresting actually.
Stealth7081 (10:34:39 PM): thanks! Are you into books or writing?
Girl******* (10:35:34 PM): I am.
Girl******* (10:35:46 PM): I'm in the process of writing a book.
Girl******* (10:35:56 PM): I havent told many people about it... actually your the first.
Girl********(10:35:57 PM): lol
Girl******* (10:36:34 PM): youre*
Stealth7081 (10:36:42 PM): LOL! I noticed you're very punctional and you're grammer is excellent - which is very awesome to see in a girl
Stealth7081 (10:37:43 PM): We're gonna get along great!
Girl******* (10:37:43 PM): Well thanks for noticing.
Girl******* (10:37:48 PM): =D
Stealth7081 (10:37:50 PM): :-)
Stealth7081 (10:38:25 PM): What your book about?
Girl***** (10:38:47 PM): That patterns of abuse and the long term effect it has on people.
Stealth7081 (10:38:58 PM): physical or sexual?
Girl****** (10:39:07 PM): All of it, including mental.
Stealth7081 (10:39:24 PM): both has long term affects on people that can cause severe wounds to cause many things such as depression etc
Girl***** (10:39:32 PM): Yes.
Girl*******(10:40:02 PM): I've been with an abusive counter part my entire life.
Stealth7081 (10:40:38 PM): your ex, dad - i don't mean to be getting into to much
Stealth7081 (10:40:54 PM): i've had abuse since i was a child
Girl******(10:40:58 PM): My Mother actually... and all my exs
Girl******* (10:41:17 PM): My ex husband tried to kill me on several occasions.
Stealth7081 (10:41:35 PM): i hate it when men do that
Girl*******(10:41:48 PM): I made it through with my life and my kids.
Girl****** (10:41:52 PM): I'm happy about that.
Stealth7081 (10:42:08 PM): i saw my biological mother beat up alot and she had these babysitters that would awful crap to me and my sisters
Girl******* (10:42:31 PM): Lots of bad people out there.
Stealth7081 (10:42:53 PM): it's good you got through it all!
Stealth7081 (10:43:10 PM): also it's good ur kids are safe also
Stealth7081 (10:43:58 PM): what movies are you mostly into?
Gir*******(10:44:15 PM): I watch any movie.
Girl******(10:44:25 PM): I like everything movie wise, as long as its... well good.
Girl***** (10:44:28 PM): Horror is my fav though.
Stealth7081 (10:44:41 PM): whoo hoo
Stealth7081 (10:45:01 PM): you're earning your brownie points missy
Stealth7081 (10:45:02 PM): :P
Girl*****(10:45:08 PM): Why is that?
Stealth7081 (10:45:48 PM): it means we're building good rapport
Stealth7081 (10:45:56 PM): lol - silly goose
Girl****** (10:46:08 PM): I ment more, is that how you feel about movies as well?
Stealth7081 (10:46:40 PM): hell yeah! I love movies, music is another one - while i'm on the computer i'll play music all day long but movies is the best
Stealth7081 (10:47:39 PM): i love horror mostly, comedies are good, thrilllers are good when alone in the dark, drama, sci-fi
Stealth7081 (10:48:10 PM): the only movie i don't like that is horror is The Hill Has Eyes I & II. I don't like the rape scenes.
Stealth7081 (10:48:26 PM): i get all pissed off then smoke
Girl&&&&&&(10:48:32 PM): smoke?
Stealth7081 (10:48:45 PM): cigarettes - i'm trying to quit
Girl****** (10:48:50 PM): Meeee too
Stealth7081 (10:49:09 PM): this is too weird! we're like almost the same
Stealth7081 (10:49:17 PM): okay, what types of music do you like
Girl$$$$$$$$ (10:49:25 PM): I like everything really.
Girl$$$$$$$ (10:49:35 PM): I'm into a lot of metal, but I just enjoy music.
Girl$$$$$$$$$$ (10:49:46 PM): Right now I'm listening to Kelley Hunt, a blues singer.
Gir$$$$$$$$ (10:49:51 PM): More indie than anything.
Stealth7081 (10:50:32 PM): Heavy Metal is my favorite - at times I'll put in like Enimem, maybe techno, maybe alternatives - it depends on my mood
Stealth7081 (10:50:59 PM): okay, like in your morning is your routine get up - make a pot of coffee and smoke
Girl^^^^^^^ (10:51:59 PM): Well, make a pot of coffee wake the kids up put on music smoke and start makin breakfast
Stealth7081 (10:52:23 PM): not that bad - kinda similiar!
Gir@@@@@@ (10:52:31 PM): I've got two baby boys though.
Stealth7081 (10:52:44 PM): it's cool
Stealth7081 (10:52:56 PM): when i was a child i was a handful
Stealth7081 (10:53:11 PM): man, would i drive my mom nuts
Girl###### (10:53:20 PM): My parents tell me that I was a pretty mellow little girl. But when I became a teenager, I was a nightmare.
Stealth7081 (10:54:00 PM): hell, i was really into stuff when i was a teenager. when i was a child i was a crazy boy! i got on the teachers desk in third grade and started stripping
Stealth7081 (10:54:08 PM): i was like a major class clown
Girl###### (10:54:28 PM): =O
Girl###### (10:54:30 PM): Hahaha
Girl###### (10:54:36 PM): Thats epic!
Stealth7081 (10:54:56 PM): Teenager years - holy shit! I didn't do anything illegal but climb on top of a bowling building and some neighbor hood people called the cops
Stealth7081 (10:55:06 PM): lol! i know dancing on the desk was eptic
Stealth7081 (10:55:35 PM): i would do so many crazy shit in school - this one time in 7th grade i slept on top of lockers in the locker room
Gir###### (10:55:51 PM): I'm going to run out and smoke, brb
Stealth7081 (10:55:57 PM): alright
Stealth7081 (10:55:59 PM): me too
Stealth7081 (11:05:03 PM): what kinda of smokes do u smoke
Girl###### (11:05:35 PM): Menthol, Salem light.
Stealth7081 (11:05:54 PM): menthols are the best
Stealth7081 (11:06:12 PM): i tried lights but don't like them that mcuh
Stealth7081 (11:06:19 PM): when you're out - then anything is good
Girl##### (11:06:34 PM): I have asthma so I really shouldnt be smoking at all.
Girl##### (11:06:44 PM): But its the only thing thats kept me sane for the past few years.
Stealth7081 (11:07:05 PM): i had that when i was a child but it doesn't bother me - oh i know what you mean! When i get stressed out sometimes, bored or anxious i smoke
Stealth7081 (11:07:24 PM): non-smokers don't understand that! it's a coping skill
Stealth7081 (11:07:35 PM): it relieves a ton of stress
Girl######(11:07:39 PM): A ton!!
Stealth7081 (11:08:07 PM): like if i'm downloading a movie or whatever, or waiting for a program to finsh cleaning my hard drive - i smoke
Stealth7081 (11:08:11 PM): or play music
Stealth7081 (11:08:37 PM): what is your favorite soft drink
Girl###### (11:08:48 PM): Coke
Stealth7081 (11:09:16 PM): i was hoping you'll say moutain dew! LOL! Vanialla coke is good but i think they stoipped making that
Girl#### (11:09:36 PM): I use to be addicted to Moutain Dew
Girl##### (11:09:45 PM): But I'm trying to ween myself of caffinee
Stealth7081 (11:10:11 PM): i'm addicted to caffeine period lol
Stealth7081 (11:10:22 PM): coffee is my best friend and cigarettes
Stealth7081 (11:10:45 PM): when i feel like i'm catching a cold or something - i'll make some green tea or black tea
Stealth7081 (11:10:53 PM): with oxyidants
Girl##### (11:12:01 PM): I looooooooooove tea
Stealth7081 (11:12:15 PM): what kind limpton green tea or black tea
Girl#### (11:12:28 PM): I like both.
Girl##### (11:12:33 PM): I'm a fan of white tea as well.
Stealth7081 (11:12:43 PM): never tried white tea but heard it's good
Stealth7081 (11:13:16 PM): do you use sugar, honey or anything else in ur tea
Girl###### (11:13:26 PM): A half a tsp of sugar
Stealth7081 (11:13:54 PM): ha ha ha that reminds me of the Marry Poppings song "A spoonful of sugar will make the medicine go down!"
Girl###### (11:14:28 PM): Haha, great movie.
Gir$$$$$$ (11:14:48 PM): I'm going to play some mahjong and head to bed. I have to be up ass early to go to work. I'll talk to you again soon?
Stealth7081 (11:15:15 PM): hell yeah! You're fucking awesome - i loved our chat
Stealth7081 (11:15:40 PM): i'll be on tomorrow
Girl####### (11:15:40 PM): Fer real, you're really cool! I had a great time getting to know you.
Gir###### (11:15:51 PM): I'll be around tomorrow night, more than likely.
Stealth7081 (11:16:24 PM): cool! we'll continue to have this chat tomorrow night and get to know each other more
Stealth7081 (11:16:28 PM): :-)
Girl###### (11:16:37 PM): Take care doll, have a great night.
Girl###### (11:16:40 PM): And Good night.
Stealth7081 (11:16:48 PM): you too hun
Girl##### signed off at 11:16:51 PM

Stealth7081 (9:47:54 PM): sup
Girl$$$$$ (9:48:12 PM): Nothing much, writing and email. Yourself?
Girl##### (9:48:16 PM): an
Stealth7081 (9:48:27 PM): finally got Sim 2 to work
Stealth7081 (9:48:28 PM): lol
Girl##### (9:48:42 PM): Awesome!
Girl###### (9:48:47 PM): Are you enjoying it?
Girl###### (9:49:03 PM): I've never really played Sims, or gotten into it. But I know a lot of people enjoy it.
Stealth7081 (9:49:19 PM): it's kinda confusing but once i learn the controls - it won't be that bad
Stealth7081 (9:49:30 PM): they're funny though
Girl###### (9:49:56 PM): Haha. Nice.
Stealth7081 (9:50:09 PM): if you're on later we'll chat
Girl###### (9:50:29 PM): Sounds like a plan.
Gir###### (9:50:31 PM): I should be.
Stealth7081 (9:50:51 PM): alrighty then ttyl
Girl###### (9:50:58 PM): Take care doll.
Stealth7081 (9:51:12 PM): yup - u too hun
Stealth7081 (10:34:15 PM): Underworld 3 is coming out on the 23! Hell yeah
Girl##### (10:34:28 PM): I know.
Girl###### (10:34:34 PM): I'm like the uber excited!
Stealth7081 (10:35:02 PM): we should go
Stealth7081 (10:35:22 PM): if not - it's cool
Gir###### (10:35:31 PM): I havent made plans with anyone else.
Girl###### (10:35:37 PM): But getting a babysitter is hard.
Stealth7081 (10:36:11 PM): well if you do then it'll be cool as hell
Girl##### (10:36:22 PM): I will try.
Girl##### (10:36:27 PM): That much is a plan.
Stealth7081 (10:37:13 PM): how was your day today? You missed me at all?
Girl###### (10:38:03 PM): I was workin my ass off. I barely have time to think.
Stealth7081 (10:38:08 PM): lmao
Girl##### (10:38:08 PM): But I got good new.
Girl##### (10:38:11 PM): news*
Stealth7081 (10:38:14 PM): what's that
Girl##### (10:38:29 PM): I'm getting a promotion of sorts.
Girl##### (10:38:37 PM): And I scored the highest in the store for my test.
Girl###### (10:38:42 PM): Well review..
Stealth7081 (10:38:58 PM): fucking sweet!
Stealth7081 (10:39:12 PM): managment position
Girl###### (10:39:18 PM): Getting there.
Stealth7081 (10:39:25 PM): what store do you work
Gir##### (10:39:45 PM): Best Buy in Downers Grove
Stealth7081 (10:40:05 PM): I applied at Geeks Squad a long time ago
Girl##### (10:40:11 PM): Oh yea?
Stealth7081 (10:40:31 PM): yeah but it's cool they didn't call back
Gir###### (10:41:51 PM): I'm honestly suprised I got the job.
Stealth7081 (10:42:45 PM): you're good with computers too? I've been working on my website to promote my products that i've been designing.
Stealth7081 (10:42:52 PM): http://www.nxt-ware.net
Stealth7081 (10:43:10 PM): some of the features are not functional yet but they will be - i'm running around like a chicken with it's head cut off
Stealth7081 (10:43:28 PM): my book, the website, another website's flash chatroom
Stealth7081 (10:43:32 PM): crazy as a goose
Girl##### (10:44:17 PM): Dizam!
Girl###### (10:44:21 PM): Do you work?
Stealth7081 (10:45:02 PM): I'm looking for a job...right now i'm living off of benefits.
Stealth7081 (10:45:16 PM): i'm trying to get my book out - the publisher is already accepting it
Stealth7081 (10:45:19 PM): it just need to get done
Stealth7081 (10:45:46 PM): my website's products will be free but i'm thinking of having a donation - not sure haven't really figured it out. here check out the product that i've been working on
Stealth7081 (10:46:36 PM): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7vHnbu2chzQ
Girl##### (10:49:04 PM): Hmmm
Stealth7081 (10:49:16 PM): i sound so wacky in that video
Girl###### (10:49:21 PM): Youre fucking hilarious
Stealth7081 (10:49:35 PM): lol - i know sometimes when i watch the video i laugh out loud
Girl##### (10:49:55 PM): I have a couple youtube videos
Gir##### (10:50:03 PM): on stupid shit.. mostly my thoughts
Stealth7081 (10:50:10 PM): i'll sub
Stealth7081 (10:50:14 PM): you sub - i sub
Stealth7081 (10:50:36 PM): "Oh, i wonder why if this will break the program!" LMAO!
Girl##### (10:51:42 PM): http://www.youtube.com/user/Gir##$##
Stealth7081 (10:52:00 PM): what do you think of Prankzter
Girl##### (10:52:10 PM): Its a neat idea.
Girl######(10:52:19 PM): And the fact that you got it to work is pretty effin cool.
Stealth7081 (10:52:31 PM): :-) there's another program that is gonna kick ass
Stealth7081 (10:52:47 PM): it was under development during the process of Prankzter
Stealth7081 (10:53:16 PM): the program was fucking neat as hell because you can search for photos, music, youtube videos, myspace, on your desk top
Gir#### (10:53:31 PM): That sounds awesome
Stealth7081 (10:53:32 PM): it's not like your browser but like a desk top thing
Stealth7081 (10:53:55 PM): it uses a control that windows explorer uses list view control - it's gonna be a while before i finally get it done
Stealth7081 (10:54:03 PM): i'm checking out your channel now
Girl##### (10:54:09 PM): Its not that great.
Girl###### (10:54:31 PM): Its two videos of me annoyed and unhappy about my high expectations of people being let down.
Stealth7081 (10:54:32 PM): i like your default profile picture
Girl###### (10:56:49 PM): Thank you, I have a bunch of those pics on, myspace.
Girl#####(10:56:57 PM): I was playing with halloween makeup.
Stealth7081 (10:57:12 PM): i love your cat in the beginning of the moive
Girl##### (10:57:27 PM): He's a 19 pound black cat.
Stealth7081 (10:57:37 PM): very beautiful
Girl##### (10:58:29 PM): Yea, he's gorgeous.
Girl##### (10:58:41 PM): http://i354.photobucket.com/albums/r426 ... 081741.jpg
Stealth7081 (10:58:48 PM): i wanna hold you
Stealth7081 (10:59:05 PM): you're beautiful and no woman should go throught that shit
Stealth7081 (10:59:27 PM): oh, that camera shake scared me
Stealth7081 (10:59:29 PM): i was like huh
Girl###### (10:59:38 PM): when the cat knocks it over?
Stealth7081 (10:59:40 PM): cat knocked it
Girl###### (10:59:44 PM): haha yea
Stealth7081 (10:59:49 PM): i was like huhu
Stealth7081 (10:59:58 PM): i thought u had a ghost in the house
Girl##### (11:00:05 PM): haha not
Girl###### (11:00:08 PM): really
Girl###### (11:00:12 PM): just a very curious cat
Stealth7081 (11:00:38 PM): i like the postive note at the end
Stealth7081 (11:01:02 PM): powerful message
Girl###### (11:01:04 PM): Yea, I was pretty pissed off when I took it. And I wanted to end it on a good note.
Stealth7081 (11:01:26 PM): i walk like a penguin is that cute
Gir##### (11:01:35 PM): Penguins rock!
Stealth7081 (11:01:53 PM): oh, you're such a flirt
Girl##### (11:01:53 PM): I came to the conclusion that I want a moose today at work.
Stealth7081 (11:01:54 PM): :-)
Stealth7081 (11:02:01 PM): lmao
Stealth7081 (11:02:31 PM): you have a twisted humor like me that's so cool
Girl##### (11:02:48 PM): Yea, I have a really random off the wall humor.
Stealth7081 (11:03:26 PM): you're naughty? what - I thought u were a saint
Stealth7081 (11:03:30 PM): damn! LOL!
Girl#### (11:03:40 PM): I'm totally innocent and sweet.
Stealth7081 (11:03:47 PM): LOL!
Stealth7081 (11:03:58 PM): oh, yeah and I'm the devil - uh huh
Gir##### (11:04:01 PM): Have you ever heard of "The Umblicial Brothers"
Stealth7081 (11:04:09 PM): no
Girl##### (11:04:16 PM): youtube reminded me of it
Girl##### (11:04:42 PM): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Azwjs931nmM
Stealth7081 (11:05:13 PM): lmao
Stealth7081 (11:05:34 PM): the bear got kncoked on the head
Stealth7081 (11:05:56 PM): lmao
Stealth7081 (11:06:05 PM): funny video
Stealth7081 (11:06:12 PM): "Shit that really hurts!"
Girl##### (11:06:18 PM): It gets better
Stealth7081 (11:07:14 PM): "I could see yo9u down there!"
Girl##### (11:07:37 PM): hahaha
Stealth7081 (11:07:51 PM): "I think this may be a bit weird" god that's funny as hell
Stealth7081 (11:10:00 PM): fucking great video
Gir##### (11:10:13 PM): They're Australian comedians.
Stealth7081 (11:10:40 PM): dick knucle that's funny
Stealth7081 (11:11:04 PM): i love your sense of humor
Stealth7081 (11:11:36 PM): so you're into slap stick
Gir###### (11:11:46 PM): Some of it.
Stealth7081 (11:12:21 PM): i don't know but Jim Carrey is funny as hell - but these guys are funny too
Stealth7081 (11:12:23 PM): i'm subbing
Stealth7081 (11:13:23 PM): i can help you with ur youtube channel - do you use it much
Girl##### (11:14:03 PM): Not very much.
Stealth7081 (11:17:32 PM): I know sometimes having been in painful relationships can be difficult for one to trust another. So, don't feel i'm pressuring you to trust quickly. You know - it's your choice!
Stealth7081 (11:17:50 PM): it's weird how almost similair things we're into
Gir##### (11:18:04 PM): Yea, I'm very timid.
Gir##### (11:18:10 PM): Barely just started talking to people again.
Stealth7081 (11:18:24 PM): i can detect that
Girl##### (11:19:33 PM): I hide behind the single mom thing too. I use it a lot as an excuse not to get out and meet people. Not so much on the excuse level. But I just exhaust myself working and being a Mom. So I dont have to think about anything else.
Stealth7081 (11:19:37 PM): my intentions aren't to be messing around - i wanna get to know somone, learn to love them and who knows you know
Girl##### (11:19:45 PM): I know.
Stealth7081 (11:20:33 PM): a friend once told me - it's okay to be vulnerable some times. I could see a bit of warrior in you
Girl###### (11:20:51 PM): I'm not good at being vunrable.
Stealth7081 (11:21:13 PM): like me - a warrior keeps on fighting and never let's down his guard
Stealth7081 (11:21:21 PM): for the fear of his oppenant might strick
Stealth7081 (11:21:46 PM): a true leader and warrior is secure and confident he'll defeat his oppenont
Stealth7081 (11:21:56 PM): don't know if that makes sense
Stealth7081 (11:22:01 PM): somehow it does for me
Gir##### (11:22:03 PM): I know what you mean.
Stealth7081 (11:23:46 PM): also, maybe it's a bit uncomfortable to be interested or enticed by someone that the types of men you were previously interested - true?
Girl#### (11:24:06 PM): What do you mean?
Stealth7081 (11:24:10 PM): that is the complete opposite of those types of men you wer previously interested in
Girl#### (11:24:26 PM): Oh
Girl##### (11:24:37 PM): Yea I dunno. I go for gorgeous men with not much brain power.
Girl#####(11:24:51 PM): That always turn out to have some sort of controlling streak.
Stealth7081 (11:25:24 PM): so, indirectly you find me facinating because of possibly brain and looks?
Stealth7081 (11:25:39 PM): i don't mean to pry if you don't want to tell
Stealth7081 (11:26:30 PM): i'm just from another planet! Where brains and good looks are common! LOL!
Girl##### (11:26:58 PM): I'm still miles away from any intrest in anyone to tell you the truth. I think youre very intresting. And I'd like to pursue the intresting. Before I get myself into anything I'm going to run away from.
Girl##### (11:27:08 PM): I have a way of bolting and or sabbotaging things.
Stealth7081 (11:28:26 PM): this is impossible - I do the same shit! If i have something good coming in my life - i usually delay it or ruin it
Stealth7081 (11:28:36 PM): we're almost like twin souls
Stealth7081 (11:29:00 PM): i'm not sure if you're into any spiritualism but - it's wacky
Stealth7081 (11:29:20 PM): like this book right, i've prolonged it for a while then i got motivated to do it again to make something out of myself
Girl##### (11:30:26 PM): I'm what I like to call, a tree huggin dirt worshipper. My spiritual self lies in something pagan based, but not magical. More practical, on the level of honoring the sheer power and majesty which is nature. Because its a very powerful thing, and I think should be respect on the highest level.
Girl###### (11:30:32 PM): It does after all contorl our lives.
Stealth7081 (11:30:42 PM): okay, testing time - testing time. I want you to close your eyes - imagine someone telling you "i love you" open you body and let yourself feel. mine experience is that i got kinda like a panic attack
Stealth7081 (11:31:15 PM): Wiccan?!!!
Gir###### (11:31:20 PM): Not at all.
Stealth7081 (11:31:41 PM): no, because I'm wiccan
Girl##### (11:31:56 PM): Wiccan is more trad based and very rule orientated. I march to the beat of my own drum. And will never be told what I feel or think based on someone elses belife system.
Stealth7081 (11:32:11 PM): my parents are catholic but i didn't agree with that was being taught so i read about wicca and witch craft - it made sense to to me
Gir##### (11:32:13 PM): That's why I say more Pagan based.
Girl###### (11:32:51 PM): Drawing Down the Moon, really opened my eyes to the fact that I am not Wiccan. She goes over the entire modern history of the craft.
Gir##### (11:33:23 PM): Not to mention I feel wiccan/wicca has become waaaay to broad of a term and people slap it on the most basic 13 year old dreams of becoming a "witch."
Stealth7081 (11:33:59 PM): gotchya - so it's pretty much of a sugar coating term
Stealth7081 (11:34:16 PM): Witch is okay but then many people hear the word witch and jump out windows!
Girl##### (11:34:22 PM): lmao
Stealth7081 (11:34:23 PM): back then they were really silly
Stealth7081 (11:34:29 PM): witches never cooked children
Girl##### (11:34:39 PM): Pagan, its a more broad term.
Stealth7081 (11:34:54 PM): Thanks to the King David - the asshole that made the Witch Hunt Manual
Girl######(11:35:22 PM): It actually defined just means, peasent folk. Which makes sense because they had to live off the land and pay respect to it which they felt made them prosper more.
Girl###### (11:35:43 PM): Yes, I forget what its called. Something Malice.
Stealth7081 (11:35:58 PM): oh, you gotta love when people hear that I'm a witch - people are like, "oh, you're a warlock" i'm like, 'Do you know what a warlock is?"
Stealth7081 (11:36:01 PM): it's kinda funny
Girl##### (11:36:06 PM): I started to read it, but it just made me angry and upset.
Stealth7081 (11:36:17 PM): yeah the Witch Hunt Bullshit
Girl##### (11:36:23 PM): Warlock means oath breaker.
Girl##### (11:36:29 PM): It was a fancy term for a liar.
Stealth7081 (11:36:34 PM): that cathorized the oath of a coven
Girl##### (11:37:06 PM): Wow.
Girl###### (11:37:11 PM): You can keep pace with me...
Stealth7081 (11:37:43 PM): oh baby - i can keep up with you any time any where. However, if there isn't anything i don't know - i'm the kinda person that wnats to learn about it!
Girl##### (11:38:10 PM): Thats excatly how I am.
Girl###### (11:38:27 PM): No, I dont know about that but please fill my head with the knowledge.
Girl##### (11:38:34 PM): I'm addicted to learning.
Gir####### (11:38:47 PM): If I could learn the rest of my life, I'd be happy.
Stealth7081 (11:39:10 PM): That would be awesome
Stealth7081 (11:39:21 PM): imagine - immortality
Stealth7081 (11:39:31 PM): but then - it'll kinda get boring
Girl#####(11:39:41 PM): Excatly.
Stealth7081 (11:39:56 PM): so may people are afraid of death - but there's actually nothing to fear
Stealth7081 (11:40:16 PM): the reason why they fear is they don't know and anything they don't know often frightens them
Stealth7081 (11:40:47 PM): for example, if a person walks in a forest and knows nothing about it - it's gonna cause some emotional unstability. such as anxiousness, fear, dread and all that
Gir##### (11:41:30 PM): I agree.
Stealth7081 (11:42:47 PM): there's unlimited possiblilties that sometimes it's hard to comprehend. I can't stand closed-minded people and i'm more welcoem to people with an opened-minded
Stealth7081 (11:43:00 PM): they're the fun ones to talk to
Girl#### (11:43:07 PM): If my mind was anymore open it would fall out of my head.
Stealth7081 (11:43:24 PM): well, that's not good then you have brain matter all over the place
Stealth7081 (11:43:28 PM): :-D
Girl#####(11:43:39 PM): brb I'm steping out to smoke
Stealth7081 (11:43:45 PM): cool
Stealth7081 (11:50:55 PM): are you the element of water or fire? I'm fire
Stealth7081 (11:51:14 PM): December 18 - Saggartus is my fire sign
Gir##### (11:51:26 PM): I'm pisces
Gir#### (11:51:27 PM): Water
Stealth7081 (11:52:26 PM): not to be weird or anything - but i was smoking and thinking of us cuddling and if felt my body shake - like i was getting cold so that's why i asked
Stealth7081 (11:52:38 PM): it's not bad or anything it's good
Girl##### (11:52:53 PM): Hmmm thats intresting.
Stealth7081 (11:53:33 PM): can you do me a favor - think of me for a second - it could be anything - don't tell me what we're doing but how does your body react. or feel or sensations
Girl##### (11:54:27 PM): Honestly...a sense of happiness and then complete fear.
Stealth7081 (11:55:09 PM): it could be that when you do feel happy - fear sweeps over you
Stealth7081 (11:55:19 PM): so in a way it's your subconsious fooling you
Stealth7081 (11:55:47 PM): in my perspective to life - there's no one answer ther's several answers to why people or things react
Stealth7081 (11:56:00 PM): so, spiritual and psycholoically
Stealth7081 (11:56:28 PM): over the periods of times - i leanred to look not only the one side but both side of the coin
Gi###### (11:56:42 PM): I can do the same most of the time.
Gir##### (11:56:58 PM): But lately its been hard for me to see past my own nose.
Stealth7081 (11:57:17 PM): my guess is before you went out to smoke - you felt giddy inside and more interested - possibly it's a self defense mechanism but somwhere inside you feel safe
Stealth7081 (11:57:50 PM): this is the psychological perspective
Stealth7081 (11:58:42 PM): somewhere in your mind - you may be questioning - how is this possible? How can we be the same almost
Stealth7081 (11:59:00 PM): this is the spiritual mixed with some psychological reasoning
Stealth7081 (11:59:35 PM): if i'm wrong you can tell me but somwehere i feel i'm right
Girl##### (11:59:54 PM): Youre reading me. Something most people cannot do.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Stealth7081 (12:00:10 AM): i tend to read people often - but some people i can't
Stealth7081 (12:00:15 AM): we have a strong connection
Gir##### (12:00:18 AM): I read people as well.
Stealth7081 (12:00:22 AM): a very strong connection
Girl##### (12:00:34 AM): It helps me to keep a distance and play with people. Which I do too often.
Girl#####(12:00:38 AM): Its a blessing a curse.
Stealth7081 (12:00:49 AM): true i agree
Stealth7081 (12:01:00 AM): it's good on some accasions and some times it's not
Stealth7081 (12:01:09 AM): sometimes what you see in people is not what you want to see
Stealth7081 (12:01:40 AM): i'm not even with you - but i can sense what you may be feeling and thinking.
Stealth7081 (12:01:59 AM): i'm excited for instance and i think you may be also
Stealth7081 (12:02:12 AM): that's why i asked you before if you thought about me because i was thinking about you also
Stealth7081 (12:02:59 AM): do you sometimes feel that when you fanatisize about a person - they can sense it or dream about it? Sometimes i fear that
Girl##### (12:03:38 AM): I think the thought has crossed my mind. I can sometimes get the sense of when someone is thinking about me.
Gir##### (12:03:47 AM): It will pop into my head out of nowhere. It freaks me out.
Stealth7081 (12:04:06 AM): are you legs wagging back and forth? mine is
Girl####(12:04:15 AM): ....
Stealth7081 (12:04:17 AM): i wondered why it happens sometimes - it could me that i'm happy, excited
Stealth7081 (12:04:22 AM): i didn't really figure out why
Girl#### (12:04:30 AM): I was bouncing my leg.
Girl#####(12:04:46 AM): Its a nervous thing I do... or maybe not nervous...something to that effect.
Girl##### 12:04:51 AM): Not sure what to call it.
Stealth7081 (12:05:11 AM): i think it's more of an excitment, maybe arousal not sure either
Stealth7081 (12:05:17 AM): maybe the same for you - not sure either
Stealth7081 (12:05:45 AM): okay, do you hear a voice inside your head - like a spirit guide or maybe a messager
Girl##### (12:06:36 AM): Sometimes, depends on how much I type into my spiritual link.
Girl##### (12:07:01 AM): I know its there but I tend to neglect it, I've learned to tune it out because most people reguard it as bizarre or that I'm odd for it.
Stealth7081 (12:08:22 AM): it's not weird - i believe that sometimes people neglect it because they dont' wanna be psychotic but some people accept it and hide behind closed doors
Stealth7081 (12:10:29 AM): it's with everyone they just are either concerned with their mundane world
Stealth7081 (12:10:30 AM): u know
Girl#### (12:11:09 AM): I get whatcha mean.
Girl##### (12:11:29 AM): =( Its uber late though doll, and I have to be up early with my childrens.
Girl####(12:11:35 AM): So I'm gonna call it a night.
Girl##### (12:11:49 AM): Conversation was intense, and fasicnating. We need to do it some more.
Stealth7081 (12:12:04 AM): hell yeah - i love talking with you
Stealth7081 (12:12:45 AM): you have an intoxicating intelligence and it's incrediable how we're the same, think the same, feel the same
Stealth7081 (12:13:13 AM): but i do understand that we should take it slow - cause i know how hard it is to trust at times
Stealth7081 (12:13:30 AM): however, i feel open and hoping you're willing also
Stealth7081 (12:14:12 AM): it's okay to be scared too - notice that and accept it.
Stealth7081 (12:15:01 AM): i'll be on tomorrow night, hun! So be there or be square!
Girl#### (12:15:23 AM): I should be on
Gir##### (12:15:27 AM): Have a great rest of you night
Girl##### (12:15:30 AM): later doll

Stealth7081 (10:46:33 PM): were you smoking around 10:30 PM tonight
GirlG#### (10:46:49 PM): I'm not sure?
Girl##### (10:46:56 PM): I think we were talking at 1030
Stealth7081 (10:47:13 PM): it's 10:47 PM right now
Gir##### (10:47:25 PM): I was just outside smoking getting my movie out of my car
Stealth7081 (10:47:55 PM): so that's why i felt the third eye tingling stronger than the solar plexus, and heart chakra
Stealth7081 (10:48:16 PM): where you thinking of talking to me o rtrying to communicate telepathically
Girl##### (10:48:45 PM): Not conciously
Stealth7081 (10:48:56 PM): subconsiously
Stealth7081 (10:49:19 PM): it's cool
Gir######(10:50:05 PM): Ive been kind of in this blind coma of no thought all day
Stealth7081 (10:50:59 PM): that had to suck
Stealth7081 (10:51:41 PM): if you're busy - i'll chat with you later
Girl#####(10:52:00 PM): I'm trying to write, but nothings coming out.
Girl##### (10:52:09 PM): I had this stellar idea but I cant seem to get it out of me
Stealth7081 (10:52:18 PM): why not
Girl#####(10:52:27 PM): I dunno just not liking how its sounding
Stealth7081 (10:52:40 PM): in your book
Girl#### (10:52:55 PM): No just some poemy kind of stuff
Girl#####(10:53:04 PM): I'm still working on the outline to my book
Stealth7081 (10:53:35 PM): my mind has been split in every bit of direction today
Stealth7081 (10:53:49 PM): i can't figure out whether or not should i change the look of my website
Stealth7081 (10:53:56 PM): it looks good but - i don't know
Stealth7081 (10:54:03 PM): cleaned my apartment some
Girl##### (10:54:16 PM): You live in Lockport dont you?
Stealth7081 (10:54:20 PM): yeah
Stealth7081 (10:54:29 PM): what about u
Girl##### (10:54:33 PM): Lemont
Stealth7081 (10:54:42 PM): that's like 15-20 minutes away
Stealth7081 (10:54:44 PM): not bad!
Girl####(10:55:00 PM): I use to hang out at Georges as a teenager and one of my bestfriends lives in that area
Stealth7081 (10:55:20 PM): Georges - ah, i know that place
Stealth7081 (10:55:25 PM): it's by the bowling alley
Stealth7081 (10:56:05 PM): it's attached to strike 'n spar
Stealth7081 (10:56:06 PM): right?
Girl#####(10:56:17 PM): Yes it is
Stealth7081 (10:58:46 PM): i'm gonna smoke
Girl##### (10:58:53 PM): Alright doll.
Stealth7081 (11:06:28 PM): i read your post - you were warm when you woke up?
Girl##### (11:06:36 PM): I was
Girl##### (11:06:41 PM): I sleep under 3 blankets
Stealth7081 (11:06:51 PM): well, that'll make anyone warm
Stealth7081 (11:07:05 PM): did sugar plumbs dance in your head
Stealth7081 (11:07:06 PM): lol
Girl#####(11:07:18 PM): I dont think I drempt last night
Stealth7081 (11:07:41 PM): a naked santa claused dancing in the snow last night in my dream. it was a night mare
Stealth7081 (11:07:45 PM): :-)
Girl##### (11:07:54 PM): lmao
Girl#### (11:07:57 PM): thats hilarious
Girl##### (11:07:58 PM): :-)
Stealth7081 (11:08:47 PM): how was your day besides being blind coma
Stealth7081 (11:09:43 PM): :-)
Stealth7081 (11:10:36 PM): you're falling sleep at the keyboard! LOL!
Girl##### (11:10:51 PM): I was texting
Girl##### (11:10:52 PM): =P
Stealth7081 (11:10:57 PM): lol
Girl##### (11:10:58 PM): It was alright.
Girl#####(11:11:06 PM): I just kind of sat around in this unmotivated coma
Stealth7081 (11:13:46 PM): is doll - a demeanor or a endearment. a friend of mine says it's an demeaner for her at times
Girl##### (11:14:26 PM): I call people I'm fond of doll.
Stealth7081 (11:17:12 PM): Okay, wasn't sure - ithought i was but wasn't sure
Stealth7081 (11:18:29 PM): like when you get close - i know you sabbotage sometimes like i do - but don't crazy thoughts conjure in ur head
Stealth7081 (11:19:04 PM): i'm like fucking tired and i don't know why. i've got plenty of sleep
Stealth7081 (11:19:23 PM): how are you feeling right now?
Girl####(11:20:09 PM): Pretty chill, reading my friend survey, he did off mine.
Stealth7081 (11:21:47 PM): i'm gonna head to bed - i'll ttyl