You turned from smooth and cool to AFC. Getting cranky was a bad, and justifying your crankiness and begging for a second chance was the nail in the coffin. Give this one up for now. She has to forget about this moment, and it's just going to take time. You can text her in a month. But let it go for now.
And for the record, you weren't even that cranky. Re-read those texts. You seemed kind of bummed that she canceled. But who doesn't get bummed when someone cancels? The correct response was to say something like: "lol I wasn't cranky I was just a little bummed that we didn't get to hang out. anyways, *insert something interest/funny and completely off topic*" Instead, you made a huge deal about it, got desperate, lost both your confidence and alpha and turned into someone she wasn't attracted to.
Don't sweat it. Everyone makes mistakes. What's important is that you recognize where you went wrong, think about what you could have done better, and make a conscious effort to do things right in the future. And based on this post, you are going in the right direction.
I'll be honest with you. You seem distraught over a girl that you never met, never even talked to on the phone. Someone posted to not get attached to women. That's definitely an overstatement. But that poster is right in that you are getting way to attached at such an early stage. I'd be very worried about what you'd do after a date or two if she started to pull away. Just like you said, you definitely need to drop your phone, computer, everything and take a walk. If you ever find yourself emotional, I would suggest not responding for DAYS, until you cool off and have had time to think. This is also why its helpful to be talking to multiple woman. That way, if things are going sour in one interaction, you can focus on others. And she will sense that you aren't desperate for her, and she will start wondering why.
Cheers,
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Update: So I officially blew it.
I quote her text: "Well you threw me off, I just met you the other day and you already were able to be all cranky and shit towards me.. I'm not interested in that"
I figured I already blew my chances, so I might as well try and explain myself.
I sent an extended text explaining why I was cranky, and how she shouldn't shut me out, there's so much good in me she could still see, and there's so much good in her I'm yet to see. Anyway, it's been an hour, and she still hasn't replied.
So guys, if you want to know what not to do when you get a girl attracted to you, come to me. I'll tell you what to do, and all you have to do is do the opposite.
I'm actually really bummed out about it, idk why. She could have been potentially special in my life, unlike a lot of girls I have come across.