So I don't really know where start. I'll give you guys some idea of my background, and I really need some advice of where to go from here......

I'm turning 26 next week and I'm a virgin, we'll get that out of the way right now. Yeah I've created some initial attraction before and made out with 3 girls in my life. The most recent one I even ate her pussy. They loose interest quickly though. I've never been in a relationship.....

I'm a pretty good looking guy. I used to have some hang-ups about my appearance but I've recently lost about 50 pounds, changed my hair style and my clothing style (went for the kind of rock star look) and I'm feeling pretty good about that aspect of my life.

I'm extremely shy and introverted. It's a problem. Even with the few close friends I have I rarely lead the conversation, and i just feed off the energy of others. I can be fun/funny in conversation, but those moments are few and far between. I'm a smart guy but I'm not able to come up with quick one-liners and stuff in conversation. To sum it up I'm pretty much socially retarded.....

I'm the stereotypical non-dominant "nice guy". I feel the need to ask for permission to do anything. It comes from the way i was raised which is something that I've just recently come to understand. I'm close to my parents, but at the same time i feel like I had a toxic upbringing (not abusive in any way, but I was never allowed to be me if that makes sense).

This may be the most important part. At the root of everything I've recently come to understand that I do not have a firm foundation of who i really am. I don't have a firm grasp of what makes me me. What I'm passionate about, why my thought process is what it is, and I know I project this to the rest of the world. It's why I'm not dominant, it's why I'm not confident, it's why i don't lead conversations, it's why girls or anyone else have no problem walking quickly out of my life.

Two of my close friends are stereotypical "Naturals" and have kind of taken me under they're wing. One of them lives overseas for 6 months out of the year and I literally have no one to hang out with when he's away. I've been reading this forum and pickup material for around a year now and a lot of what they're saying is similar. Out at the clubs they force me to go dance with/talk to girls, but nothing ever comes out of it because I project the non-dominant bore that I am.

I know a lot of you guys were in the same miserable place that I am, and have found a way to overcome it. Where do I start? How do I discover who the fuck I am? How do I become the dominant, fun and interesting person that people gravitate to? To be completely honest I'm sitting here crying as I type this..... Help me out guys....Thanks in advance!

find out why you like girls

find out why you need girls in your life

find out what are your goals in life mate, what makes you or will make you happy

First step is become a man.
Go out there and do what you want to do.

I feel no passion in your life, without passion you are nothing but an overgrown kid.
You need personality, to have the righ personality you need masculinity and to get masculinity you need objectives, dreams, desires and the drive to get them.

I'm sorry to tell but... if you don't picture what you want to become and start working for it you are never going to grow.

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Every man dies but not every man truly lives