| Yo guys.
I’m someone who if left alone for too long will end up contemplating the universe and the meaning of life. Any way when I get into the head space I right down my thoughts and views on life, and as a result it would like to think I’m a well grounded person with a lot of inner strength. I’d like to shear a few of paragraphs from an essay I wrote called “the passenger” it’s not game related as such but it shows how I see the world, and maybe just maybe it might help someone here with their inner game and self confidence. I hope it helps. Also if you would like the full version pm me and I’d be more than happy to send it to you. Enjoy and all the best.
“One of my observations if you like is simple, chaos theory and the butterfly affect. (Cause and effect) now I’d love to hear someone argue against that! Every action has a reaction. However I take it one step further. I believe ever action is in fact another reaction to a previous reaction. In other words the past has determined the present, and therefore the present determines the future. We can’t change the past but everything we do is a reaction to it, and the future is determined from our reactions to the past. Even more simply put we’re all “time locked” if you like (Yes I’m aware that sounds very Dr who). Now I can’t prove this in its entirety, but I’m still to meet someone who can disprove it. So it remains my theory on life and a principle in which I live by.”
“Faith, to me, Or true faith is that feeling. The one where you can close your eyes and walk calmly off a cliff need be or over broken glass, and know you’ll be okay. (Not that I often pass the time cliff diving or walking over glass that would be stupid). Take my ‘time lock’ theory, if I can’t change the past, I can’t change where I am in the present, and where I am presently will sweep me along what every path in the future whether I like it or not. So without the power to control any of those things what do we truly control? Nothing? Maybe, I’m still to think of something. So if we can’t control where we’ve been and where we’re inevitably going - why worry about it. Why waste time and energy fighting it. Why not just close your eyes and let the winds of fate take you where they will, and make the most of it. And it’s in that I draw my faith. Wherever I go, and what ever I do, I was always destined to go and do, just as everywhere I’ve been and everything I’ve done, I was meant to be and was meant to have done. So I have no regrets, sure I’ve made mistakes in the past, things I would never do again, but if I didn’t make tough mistakes I would never learn from them, and I wouldn’t be the person I am today if I hadn’t and I would never be the person I will become. Whoever he maybe.”
“. Again I cannot completely prove it nor can anyone prove me wrong. I do believe that it’s relevant to that person, if they were to add up all their life experiences, no matter how long or short they lived. Relevant to that person (so only you can account for your own experience,) the good and the bad, the positive and the negatives, the joys and the sorrows of your life would add up and balance out. For can you really know happiness without sadness? Love without hate? Courage without fear? There all two sides of the same coin. One can’t exist without the other. And it all happens regardless of us, even in the most horrific tragedy. A tragedy so bad it’s unfathomable by a human mind, somewhere in the time line some good would come out of it.
A girl I knew was tragically killed in a car crash a couple of weeks previous to writing this. A human would cry “Why?!” She was only 23 and full of life. The answer is who knows? Maybe her death would serve as a warning to others not to drink drive, and spare others from the same fate? Awaken someone to their own mortality and drive them to do great feats? A very close, young family member of mine fought cancer for many years, a young child. Why? However, the experiences we went through shaped us into who we are and even in our darkest hours we found something to hold on to. It’s strange that even in the deepest, coldest darkness of this life, light can be born and shine bright with hope. As I’m sure there’s and equal analogy that even in the most righteous light, a darkness and corruption can spawn. Religion maybe? Such are the many faces of this reality.”
“So where does that leave us? We’re “time locked” and therefore have no control of our actions? Well that’s the strange beauty of it. We all share the same physical reality, where we meet one another and conduct our business. But yet there’s enough room in this universe for each of us to have our own private universe. Our perceptions of god or the world make up our reality, and should your perceptions change so does the world in which you live. We entered this world with nothing and we can take nothing out, except our thoughts our memories and our dreams.”
“They choices we make, as I argued previously, we’re meant to make and would have always made. So was it really a choice? Yes, I say. I wouldn’t choose to dive in front of a bus, or to murder someone because those choices have consequences. I’d die or go to jail. And its those consequences that make us choose as we do, and as we’re meant to. Even though it might not be true free will, it still feels like a choice.”
“So what I’m saying I suppose is what countless other wise men have said. Don’t worry or stress about what u can’t control or have regrets. Enjoy what you can, for your time is short and no matter how bad things become there is always another side of the coin and it happened for a reason. Even if you’re tinny human mind couldn’t fathom it. And there is more to this world than we’ll ever truly know. But then again we’re all god to our own mind.”
xXx Lc xXx
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A smart man can tell you how the world works; a wise man can tell you why.
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