You are being stubborn.

Like the post title says, you revel in not having success.

Ditch that identity.

There are girls on Youtube who make an effort out of appearing hopeless and miserable.

Then they go to talk to other girls who try to appear to be hopeless miserable and they do not see or want the solution which is right in front of them (which would be guys) but they just keep complaining and oh I cry so much and oh I understand you now we're not alone.

And this is the same thing really. These girls are not looking for a solution, because if they were, they would find it instantly (like guys like me). And these solutions are often solutions society tells them to not look for (like older men).

Men are berated for fucking teenagers because the teenagers are so easy to get and hence you shouldn't be getting them. That's some weird logic right there. You are not allowed to pick the low hanging fruit. What kind of nonsense is that?

Pick the low hanging fruit.

Go for the chicks you want.

Even if they are young. Risk getting fucking killed for it.

And dump your attitude. Dump your persona as "Charm the Old and Ugly but invisible to Attractive Women". You know what kind of creative statement that is? That is like WANTING to be that.

And don't wear shirts like "Lunatic" when you are in psychiatry either, know what I'm saying?

And simply tell girls what upsets you, like I've said. You may find that they are feeling the same things.

Stop trying to get them for a moment or two. Just talk to them and tell them what grieves you. You may find they are feeling the same about it too.

Even if it is just "I hate how you girls don't actually see me. I feel invisible."

You know. Even if it fucks up a contact, why do you care so much. Stop caring so much. Give up your safety. Give up your success. Give up your protection. What do you really have to lose but painful death at the end?

GIRLS FEEL INVISIBLE TOO.

GIRLS HAVE GRIPES WITH MEN TOO.

Make fun of that if you want you know. Do whatever.

Just go up to a girl and say "You're not sleeping with me."

Ha. But don't keep bitching about it with no other reason than to feel sorry for yourself and to revel in your misery.