Your a freak, i know becasue I am/was this way for about half my life, maybe a little more then half, look in 2 autism disorders.

But also look in 2 NOOTROPICS.

You are not alone, I myself sometimes feel tired and just want to die, we can say it is because of stress and depression. I am glad I can somehow manage it because I am still alive today. Thanks to my family and friends who are always there, supporting me, and also what I did is, I just keep my self strong and I do my best to overcome such difficult situation.

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I thought Sidnne's post was amazing.

I think those WOW type games are bad news. I reckon if you spend enough time playing them you won't really feel much like a human anymore, and that's not going to do a lot for your self-esteem.

I had similar feelings to you recently, but that's largely because someone very close to me did actually take this route and so suicide has become a part of my life whether I like it or not. All I can say is she made a mistake and you would be making a mistake if you did the same. I don't know if you have any siblings, but don't inflict on them the experience of having to comfort their mother over something that she can never truly be comforted over.

And above all, you may not feel like you're young now, but you are. You haven't even begun to give things a chance yet, so you're in no position to make up your mind that all hope is lost. If I thought I was going to keep feeling the way I felt at 21 for the rest of my life then maybe I'd be thinking along similar lines, but things do change. You grow up and you settle down and the issues that seem like the end of the world in your youth don't seem like such big issues anymore.

look at your situation this way bro:

now, you're at your lowest point. Can it get any wors? NO!!!!!
the hardest part is behind you. from now on (with the right help and attitude), it can only get better!!

believe me, this depression is a temporary fase! time heals everything, don't think this feeling will last the rest of your life.

stay strong

ok, so i have met a therapist and we are gonna go over my issues

firstly, i dont care what my parents think, afterall my dad is so shy he finds it hard to pick up a phone,yet he still wanted to spread his spunk around and have kids, . I feel like i am destined to live like this and the only way i can do something is to kill myself or others. I feel so bad that i cant even talk to others,

what do you mean i havent given things a chance, i have been shy since 15, and it will be nearly 7 years, thats like 1 tenth of my life.

i told my psychologist that if i dont make marked improved than i will kill myself and others too if neeed be,

i have made absolutely no progress since the time i posted here, so i think i may just have signed my death warrant, as i have promised myself that i will not live like a piece of shit, and if i die i will do it on my own terms.

It just goes to show , life is a game, and either your genes are suitable for the enviroment and you survive and replicate or they are not and you die.

TBH i dont think it will ever be possible for me to solve this issue, but i will give it one last try, and then i will do myself in if my life doesnt change.

I have never seen any useful advice ever posted, on any forums, only things sayingg it will get better or talk to more people etc, although im pretty sure i know that already. I still cant believe that any1 here has been in my situation, because every1 here seems so succesful compared to me, ie the type of people who have had sex and are looking for more.

Once my therapist is done everything she can, i will bid this world farewell, i will be brave and take the final step that many cowards on internet forums wish they could do.

what you gotta do is start working out hard core get protien shakes with whey, workout 2 hours a day strength training one day then running then strength. After that get some clothes that look good on you and stop giving a fuck. Buy a prositute so you wont be a virgin and it will make you less nervous around girls backpage is a good place to get them. For school work study hardcore or take an easy course load.

blueindian, it's not cool to come on here and threaten your own life and life of others and claim that everyone here is better off than you and we haven't given you any good advice. That's not cool at all bro. I go to the doctor tomorrow to see if I have lung cancer or not. Another member here spent two months laying on the floor of his apartment drinking vodka because he thought he was infected with HIV. That's real talk. I wish I had the time or will power to describe all the embarrassing and disappointing situations I've been in when it comes to women. Most every pua on this board has also been unceremoniously rejected on a continual basis. Our lives aren't any better or worse than yours in that respect, because many of us have had tough upbringings and had a ton of horse shit flung on us too.

The ONLY reason we achieved anything, with women or otherwise, is because we persevered. Perseverance isn't a one time thing either, it's continual. I'll wake up tmrw with pain in my lung, eventually the girl I'm seeing will tell me it's not working out. I expect this. But I also expect to overcome it and keep going. At the end of the day they can take everything away from you: your health, your money, your women....and all you will have left is your willpower. That is what defines you as a man. When the chips are down do you just give up and fold? Or do you man up and muster the inner strength to fight on for one more day, one day at a time, and claim what is out there waiting for you. It's out there bro, you just can't give up before you find it.

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“Nothing is impossible, the word itself says 'I'm possible'!” ~Audrey Hepburn

ok, thank you, but i am at university and i have no friends

last year i had a awesome group of people that i had met and yet i decided to lock myself up in my room and play skyrim

my brain is fucked up, thats my problem

i have no friends this year and i dont know what to do, i dont know how to make friends with my class mates,

and even if i do i feel that i will just do what i did before,

if i join a club then i will make friends but will not bother talking to anyone because i know that i will not make friends with anyone

like, i have met new people on my course, i spoke to everyone at the start, but have not made any friends with them, i dont know what to do

i dont have a facebook, i want a facebook, i want to have friends, but i feel it is impossible for me to make any

i am in a situation whereby i cannot even live in reality and i have to play computer games as i dont have to think about my life.

i cant even study because every time i try to, i think of my failures and my shitty life and ask myself " whats the point in studying" because id rather play team fortress 2 or wow and forget my pain. What do i do, i dont believe ive ever had a chance in my life simply because my father was a shy cnt and i believe i have recieved his genes. Throughtout my whole life i have felt like this, i will not continue like this any longer, and either that will be through violence or through help from my therapist, if the help is successful

i have much willpower, thats why i am not dead, but i am also not successful, pua ninja i believe that you are one of those people who are succesful and have not been given a mental disability.

You suggest that i live a life of pain an misery and wait for things to fall in my lap, because i cannot access those things myself and when i do i fail miserably. Every time i have failed, every single time, i have something wrong with my brain.

If medicine cannot fix me than i will not live in pain, and you cant feel my pain but i have told you it.

I do not know what to do, i am lost but i am also brave, if society doesnt want to find a cure for my illness than society can go an fk itself , and i will do that with my body until i am dead.

I've got to say, blueindian, that you are in a terrible state. This is because I don't think contemplating committing suicide does any help. You complain about not having friends, not getting laid, having a 'fucked' brain etc - and that's okay. But this 'all or nothing' suicide thing just indicates that you have just about given up all hope. Metaphorically speaking, you're pretty much running on empty.

What your number one immediate goal should be at the moment is getting rid of your suicidal feelings and establishing some emotional stability. It's good that you're seeing a therapist at the moment, but it's not going to help unless YOU decide to get over this hump and get back to normal. Once you're stable then you can start working on areas of your life that you'd like to change/improve.

i have decided , thats why i am seeing a therapist lol

but i just dont know how

I've been suicidal, severely depressed. In fact I spent a great deal of this year depressed and even suicidal at times. I know what its like to be *completely* alone, without even parents or family to support you.

First just try to make guy friends. Find people who you have something in common with, be it gaming, drinking, getting high, whatever you are into, and do that with them. You don't have to be best friends, just acquaintances. Start there. You meet people via other people, and develop a social circle.

But ask your therapist these things and see what they think. They may have different advice for now. My advice for you is to forget about women for now. You are only 21, you have so many years left to seek women and fuck. Heck if I remember correctly the author of the game was almost 30 when he started PUA. I'm almost 30 myself.

something you might want to try out:
if you feel depressed and empty, try to quit mastrubating (or at least reduce your fap- frequency).
It may sound strange, but no fapping will boost your energy level, your (sexual) arousal, your confidence...

I know what I'm talking about, I tried it myself

there are some great topics on the forum about the benefits of no fap, check them out!

forget about women? why the hell am i suicidal in the first place

Forget about women for now and just work on you. If they come into your life on their own, fine. But give yourself a little time to build yourself into a quality person. If you have this mindset that you need to have women right now in order to be happy or to be like everyone else then you might not be able to live up to that expectation, thus causing more depression.

When I made my formal transition from AFC to PUA, I knew it was going to take a couple months at least in order to fix all the shit that was wrong. And even then I didn't have super high expectations for myself. You gotta' understand that it wasn't easy. I had to really apply myself. I had to gain a lot of weight, which is hard for me. I had to get off drugs. I was shitting myself and laying in bed shaking and cold sweating at night all alone with nobody to comfort me. All I had was this glimmer of hope that I held on to. That one day things would be different if I just held the course and got through it. Eventually I fucked some internet pornstar, got my mojo back, and now I'm a pua. But that never would've happened unless I man'd up and overcame all the obstacles in front of me.

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“Nothing is impossible, the word itself says 'I'm possible'!” ~Audrey Hepburn

If you are at a low enough point that you are contemplating suicide, then at the very least you realize that it can't get any worse. Now instead of even considering that you would be better off dead, you should realize that when you are at the bottom there is only room for improvement.

You can't get any worse than zero, seriously just make an effort, ANY effort is better than nothing at all. And hell, you don't even have to worry about rejection because well, you know it isn't going to do anything as bad as killing you, and apparently you were already okay with that.

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