| I figured this'd be the place to post this and I guess it's just a rant. It'll probably be a wall of text, and well... I hope it's a good read.
I've told the story of how I had some serious issues with myself about four-three years ago that boiled up on the surface when I had to face my military service. I was fat, un-trained and flat-out delusional. My sex life? Yeeah... I had a theme song. Ever heard that one with Whitesnake?
'...Here I go again on my own -- going down the only road I've ever known!'
A pretty common story, I think. I found DeAngelos stuff and combined PUA-stuff with the 'break-you-down-and-build-you-up'-phase in the military I came out as a new man. I finally knew who I was. I needed it.
I've got some success stories (and of course a hell of a lot of failures -- but hey, who doesn't?) to tell and sex haven't really been an issue the last couple of years. I've learned a lot of stuff. About people in general -- but mostly about myself and I definitely have the PUA-community to thank for that. But you know what? I think it's time for me to let go.
I recently had a great streak of success. Again, I have to thank the community for my success out of the bed as well. I don't think I would've gotten my last job without realizing that I have to take risks and don't care about what people think. I've nailed every single interview and one time someone actually offered me a job over the Burger King counter.
And I finally came around to send an application to a school I've had my eyes on for over five years. And guess what? I'm in. I'm studying as we speak.
Three months before I even knew for sure I'd get in -- I told my boss that I'd quit. A true leap of faith. I told my boss that "In three months, I'm out of here".
And it worked out. That feeling... was awesome.
So I moved out of the only town I've known and instantly got a few friends down here and we got to talking about girls and relationships. I said, with a lot of confidence, that I'd never date someone in the same class... yeah, I think all of you realize where this is going.
Of course there's a girl in my class that really blew my mind. I can honestly say I have never met anyone remotely close to being like her. I do not believe in "the one" or anything, but I've come to a step I still struggle with. Actually telling someone that I like them... and now I'm going to take another leap of faith and do what Nike told us all to do all along: Just Do It!
So, it's been a blast. It might not work out, but hell... I am where I want to be. I remember thinking "What? I don't need help. Only losers need this kind of help!... I doubt it'll work, but... err... yeah, I'll give it a try."
Glad I did. I've learned a lot, but now it's time for me to learn something new.
So, even if this post seems poorly written (it's 3 AM, so cut me some slack) I've got to say this: Most of you probably have -no idea- who I am, but thank you. It's been a blast.
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