Just venting my story of the last 24 hours.

So I was caught in a weird situation last night. My brother is currently living in an apartment with his girlfriend and her sister. Long story short, I ended up very drunk and making out and cuddling with the sister. She's apparently super crazy, as in legitimately crazy, but she was pretty cool last night. And she's also gorgeous, as in about as close as a girl can be to my definition of physically perfect. However, I found out later today that she is in a relationship of five years, which is now apparently an on and off again thing. Anyways, cuddling with that girl was fun and sweet, and to be honest, it made me feel excited and giddy all fucking day. I'm glad that neither of us tried to take things any further, because spending a night spooning a gorgeous girl is apparently exactly what I needed.

She facebooked me soon after I left their place, and her message didn't hide that she liked me very well. I sent a message back saying that we should hang out again soon.

A little later, my brother warned me to not do anything with her again though, moreso because of the crazy than the boyfriend. I agree with him about it being a bad idea, though the boyfriend thing weighs on me more. So I just emailed her again saying that if we do hang out more, it should be as friends, citing not wanting to come between her and her boyfriend. Even though I trust what my brother is telling me and there are always other girls, it's still frustrating being talked out of the chance to explore things further myself, regardless of it being a good or bad idea. Fuck beans.

fuck that man

boyfriends one thing, and that can get you all fucked up like "i don't wanna ruin something or get in the way' and you get kinda nervous, specially if you really like the girl, about her going and seeing him and all this other shit.

but dude, so what if shes crazy. and, how so is she crazy? like just a bit wild and weird/kooky or totally psychopathic violent crazy bitch?

cause I mean, you can always just fuck her, see how things go from there and then if shes totally fucked up then let it be and go away.. But don't give up now! you haven't even gotten anywhere!

not really too worried about it at this point, was just a bit frustrated at the time. can't really just bone and dash on this girl, since my brother pretty much lives with her and I hang out with him a lot.

girl is crazy in that she is kind of moody, sleepwalks and eats meat (despite being a strict vegetarian) and has been previously observed (by medical professionals) showing signs of schizophrenia, which runs in her family. like i said, by all means a bad idea. ill be damned if my interest is still not totally deterred, though. we'll see how this one plays out, i suppose.