I'm not necessarily looking for advice, however if you have some and want to share, I have no objections. I'm writing this more to share what I'm going through and hear what others have to say about their own experiences.

I've been in the community for a little over a year now. Had some ups and downs, tons of successes, overall having reinvented myself to where I wouldn't recognize the old me. What lead me to joining the community was a 5 year unhealthy, manipulating relationship with an older married woman. I met her when I was 16, and the relationship started when I was 19. She was the person I legitimately had sex with. Not the cop out of penetration so technically I lost my virginity, which had happened before. I ended it FINALLY shortly after I entered the PUA world. Still to this day I'm realizing things she had put in my head of self doubt/ and lack of worth.

My first real girlfriend, and I say that because it was out of high school and not an affair, was this past summer/fall. I fell head over heals. We were in an open relationship, and I had told her about pick up. Taught her tricks of the trade, methods, showed her my notes, everything! She knew I had a rough past, and occasionally it came up with us talking about it. Our first week as a couple, a buddy and I had a threesome with her. I was so ecstatic that I found someone willing to have a series of crazy adventures lodged in sexual domination of the town we lived in. The time we spent together was very short. She again was a manipulative woman, using everything I had showed her and told her about myself against me, toward the end. She basically out-gamed me and all my PUA friends. Even my friend and student who I taught game too, who is a woman, didn't catch any of it. Took me a couple months to recover. I rarely could get a number, and if I did couldn't close the deal.

Finally, things started to pick up. I was ruling the rooms left and right, back on my high horse. I'd be lying if I said she wasn't still on my mind at that point, but it was more so out of anger. I wanted to bump into her again, one girl on each arm, so she could see how I rose above her. More practiced, better health, the works. I think that anger is finally what brought me back. But as the quote says (paraphrased), 'Holding onto anger about someone, is like drinking poison and expecting them to die.'

Then I met another girl. We started to hang out and she eventually dumped her boyfriend at the time, who is a class A douche bag, to pursue things with me. This girl felt inferior to me. She generally prefers to be the smart one in a relationship, so having me around was a little unnerving. The sex really wasn't that great, but unlike my last girlfriend who inflamed my deviant side, this girl ignited my passionate side.

I had learned my lesson from before. I completely left out any suggestion at pick-up, letting her think I was just a sly womanizing Barney Stinson type (we both love the show). I didn't fall head over heals this time, however this left me open to get to know her as a person. We have tons in common.

Then an old flame came back into the picture. We talked about it. She doesn't have hopes it's going to work out but she wants to pursue it again, because of how it ended previously. I was fucked. It's common knowledge that I am a do what you want type person, forgoing what is expected of you. I could have talked her out of it. She even said that I was the only person who could talk her out of it. Yet if I did, while getting what I wanted, all value would have been lost completely contradicting my identity. I told her to go for it. Putting myself back at square one. I did however in the same conversation convinced her to go the school I'm transfering too, move with me and my friend/game mentor, and completely go against all her initial plans. I set the whole thing up very nicely I feel. We continue our friendship, I can pull back while still building rapport. She even put in for a day off to go as my plus one to a friends wedding. Told me today in a text conversation.

"It's a good thing we are going to be roommates or this whole "boyfriend" business could really get in the way of my 'John' time."

"Indeed it could. And neither of us want that to happen!"

"No. In that case, I'd have to kick him to the curb."

Sounds pretty solid, right?

Here's my issue. I am a completely impatient bastard. I can deal with her fucking some other guy, shit I'll be going out getting my own strange. But now I have to share her 'emotionally' so to speak. She's working out hardcore getting an even more attractive body and this asshole is in the way of my experiencing that as well, which is annoying, and she's not the cheating type (which I actually do respect). Now that I come to think of it, whats irking me is how to dominate the situation without hurting my value. I can't be the aggressive person anymore as I was before. That was one of her main issues with me, which by no means will I change myself for anyone, but I need to know how to work around it. I let this shit happen to me and man does it piss me off.

Anyway, that is my story. I would love to hear your guy's thoughts.