First off I want to say that in a very short time span like a month I've transformed my life into being a better person by being a person of better character. What changed me was "the way of being" part by Matador in revelations where he describes by being a person of positive characteristics when you are around people and when your not gives off a vibe that you are an attractive person. This along with the part of delivery- talking slowly, articulately, and confidently has helped me become a more charismatic person and most importantly I feel better about my life.

I've only learned some pickup stuff from watching both seasons of the pickup artist, reading "the game" by neil Strauss and am halfway through revelations. I haven't had much time to get into pickup due to a busy semester. But when I do go out I do so much better.

I'm a virgin but in the span of four days I got two different girls to give me bjs. The thing is I can't get hard. The later girl absolutely loves me and she's 7.5 but really cool and fun. I should be dying to fuck her and she wants me to so bad but I couldn't get hard enough for her. I'm starting to think its from watching too much porn. I looked online and it says that we can can overwhelmed with porn and get desensitized to the real thing. I'm 20, I've been watching porn for like 9 years 2-3 X a day. I thought that was normal, but others I've talked too say they don't do it that much. It talks about how it takes a while to get over a porn addiction but in the end it'll get better. I don't know what to do other than not watch porn and not masturbate which I'm on day 5-probably the longest period since I started. I feel like I have a dead dick though and it sucks. And if I don't fuck her soon shes gonna go fuck another guy and be with him.

I would really love some advice. Is this more common than I thought. I feel like in my head I want to- but I can't muster myself to.