So I'm not going to lie and say "I haven't been hurt". I have and it sucks. But my brain still goes on defense mode every once and awhile when I see a girl showing interest in me. My last two girlfriends keep on coming up in my head. They used me and teased me and I couldn't see it. I was dating this girl last year and we were together for 3 months before I asked her out. Throughout that entire time I couldn't believe it. I kept on saying" Is this for real?" Finally when I did get up the courage to ask her out and make it official, she goes around and says "sorry I don't see you that way I kiss all my friends".. On the lips?? C'mon now... Yeah I probably did some AFC things. IE Bought her flowers and was always available I did the whole boyfriend crap.. Even when I wasn't her boyfriend. I want to get out there and meet another women that I connect with and try to do things right again.. but my defenses are up because I've been hurt in the past.. How do I shake this feeling? And be me again?

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"It's not who I'm underneath, but what I do that defines me"-SPAM Begins

You know what, I keep remembering this girl that I really liked a few years ago every once in a while. She was very interested in me, but instead of being myself, I became too obsessive and depressed, driving her away from me. I won't lie, she was an HB10 and now there's no way I can get her back. But hey, I'm glad that has happened to me because that experience gave me LOTS of mistakes to learn from. Now every time I remember her, I start chuckling at my old-AFC-self, thinking of how pathetic I was.

Good Luck,
Titan

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