| Well, regardless... All time low but I learned from this my fellow PUAs... I learned a harsh lesson.
The one girl I genuinely liked and would have really enjoyed my time with if even for a week we would have had together fell to pieces before me... And who was it at the end of it who got to who? It was her who ruined any semblance of fun or happiness between us.
I'll tell you, i'll tell you all and future PUAs just what I went through with this girl.
I met a sweet girl, a girl who told me she had very little experience with men, a girl that was -- by her own account -- naive, sweet and innocent. She liked me when I first met her and I could see it in her eyes. It took me two meetings to k-close her(Of no fault of my own). I asked her out after k-closing when she came back after her travels, organised a date in my apartment and we met up, although she was incredibly shy and nervous because "bad things happen when you go to a guys apartment." I was sweet, nice, did not invade her privacy or force myself on her in any shape or form regardless of her advances -- although I must stress she freaked me out during this night(Read my post on a "nightmare date"). After that date we organised another, one she wished to cook for me in my apartment and look after me. I agreed, talked to her once in a while when we were both busy through text. The day before she comes back and has a cold. She tells me she's feeling under the weather. I wish her well and go to sleep. Next day I ask if she's okay. She says she's too sick to which I reply "that's okay, i'm feeling a bit sick also." We cancel. It's one of our last nights together but she says she might see me the night after with me, my friends and her friends who she wants to see before she leaves.
The next day comes after our cancelled date and she tells me her friends(The ones she wishes to see before she leaves for good) don't want to go to the place I am at; they don't like it. I say fine, if not it's not a big deal and I guess it will be goodbye. She gets her friends to come to the club i'm at and tells me "You need to realise this is my last night with my friend(s). I need to spend time with her(them)." I say fine. Later on she's there, i'm there. I see her, kiss her on the cheek and say hi to her friend(s). I get a drink, leave her alone to spend time with her friend(s) and go back to VIP. Message her after an hour asking if she wants to come up. I get an "Okay..." and an hour and a half later see her up there. Then nothing. I see and speak to her for a minute. That's it. Then she gets dragged off and I don't see her for the rest of the night.
Two hours later I message her asking for five minutes alone. I get no reply. Then two hours after that she comes up to say goodbye, that she's leaving. I look at her(I'm annoyed and upset) and go for a kiss. I get a "I can't." I then tell her "goodbye" wish her luck and push her away. She tells me not to be like that on "our last night" to which I say "this is your doing." and turn around. She walks away without even spending five minutes in the entire night with me or even a single kiss before she leaves. After that I delete her from FB, block her from texts and leave her with a message of "Good luck."
Needless to say I liked this girl. I gave her the benefit of the doubt. I genuinely thought she liked me as she led me to believe she did. After tonight it was clear she was just like all the others... Just another woman.
I'm an attractive guy. I have "game." I have women check me out, approach me and I take liberties of choosing my women but with this one woman I felt something a bit more than the others. I gave into my weaknesses and gave her too much of my mind and heart. I paid the price. I paid the price dearly.
There was a beautiful woman of equal attractiveness who looked similar to her, much younger and very sweet... but I didn't game her or try to attract her despite her glances and advances because I had one woman on my mind. I did not want to ruin my chances with the one woman I had a single week left with. By the end of the night, of my waiting, I lost the girl that was shy, sweet and seemed truly into me for some fat prick that no one gave a damn about and didn't have the one woman I wanted to be with.
Don't fall into the same bullshit trap I fell into and if you do recognise where it's going and cut it off before you damage your chances with other attractive women.
Lesson learned.
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