so i used to just fuck whatever fell into my lap. and on top of it all i have a thing for girls to dominate me.
it all begins with a drunken night i fuck a girl who will dom me and i go along with it. in the morning i realize that she is "fat" (ill explain quotes later)

i shook my mistake off and thought of it as nothign morethan a drunk hook up, until
in the next couple nights i another "fat" hook up.


the next night, hb8 and fatty 1 come over. i hook up with hb8 and all seems well until fatty 1 and her (they are friends) roll up to my room with an inticing "follow us.."
so i do and it turns out they wanna 3some. i declined it (slowly and tried to be cocky funny) and they leave - oddly enough only fatty 1 got upset about me shutting them down.

my question is - was i wrong to shut them down? i mean 3somes are great (only hadone before, and yes with both hbs) but i just coudlnt throw myself back into getting with a fat girl

here is where the other question comes into play - is it wrong for me to not want to see a fat girl again? im sorry but i just cant be happy with myself if im hooking up with unattracktive people. i dont just mean with looks, but these fat girls are needy and annoying.

o and i think it matters , when both of the 3some girls left my party, the only one who texted me was the fat one. i texted the hot one back - no answer (she has ignored me a couple of times now).

once again i think that im just being AFC and i need to let old habits die. but unfortunately these fat girls have feeling and now they come to me saying im an asshole. i never get mad and im always kind and listen, but i tell them the truth - i think that a girl reflects me, and im not happy with the reflection you give to me.

i feel bad because i feel like ive hurt people. but on the some note, ive been hurt time and time and fucking time again. is it so wrong that ive finally put some standards into my life? is it wrong that people dont like me for me?

one of the fat girls came and told me that i need to stop being so "friendly" to everbod becase i just lead people on. i told her that maybe she shoudlve realized that a drunken hook up shouldnt be taken as a sign that im interested.
i know that these girls have valididty to their argument, i just want to know that i have valididty to be picky. i am the prize right? i do deserve somebody who is my equal at least, if not better and i should be attrackted to?

o andthe worst is, that when all is and done, i worry what hb8 is going to think of me when i all i do is hook up with her fat friends.
fuck i hate this situation. if it hasnt been clear im sorry its the end of a 2 kegger and ive had to deal with this bullshit all night. i hate second guessing myself and its what im doing right now. mentally masturbating......

It's not wrong to have standards.

And for the HB8 you mentioned. It seems to me that she was only going to sleep with you, if you were gonna give her big friend some action too.

Don't worry about the HB8 texing/calling you. If she don't wanna get laid, screw her then. No one needs that kind of drama in their life.

Just keep doing what you're doing bro.


There's a line that I heard, and I really take it to heart.
It's from Donald Trump....

"If you're gonna be a success, you're gonna have a lot of people that don't like you."