| I will try to be brief.
2 and a half years ago, I'v met a younger girl (18) online, I was 26, we texted for 6 months first (dirty stuff, and sexy pictures also). In 2.5 years we saw each other 7 times for around 2 hours each time. We kissed on a 3rd date, and on the 4th, and on the fifth, but not on the 6th and 7th (after one year, because she was very flaky, and I said we need a break because only texting has gotten boring, and that we should hang out when we are more comfortable with the age difference and each other).
She is totally different in real life than she was on the phone texting. She's very scared and inexperieneced, has BIG trust issue cause she's been hurt before, and she doesnt want anything (no relationship, no sex, just kissing). She even doesnt want me to drive her home, or go somewhere with a car.
Now because I am so carefull with her I might be falling into a friend zone, or maybe protector zone, especially since the 6th date one year ago when there was no making out.
Now, last week, we met after 1 year, and I felt she was very cold and passive, very little eye contact from her, I suggested of putting her head on my chest but she said it feels funny (its weird how she randomly mentions other hot guys, and insists of me going out with my co-worker I mentioned, but at the same time tells me she likes it if we get together and nothing happens, because if something did happen, she would be the one hurt.)
At the end I suggested we should meet occasionaly, maybe in 4 months or so, because I felt that she is not relaxed.
She seemed a little bugged out, but went with it.
I thought I could get her trust oneday, but even now she said she isn't certain if she'll ever be comfortable to go with a car somewhere. (Maybe I'm dealing with it the wrong way, I don't know.)
I'm thinking of letting her go, for my sake, and for hers. She isn't the center of my world, its just that I care for her, and dont want to damage her.
Need some point of view from you guys. I already feel like a made a mistake sticking with her in the beginning.
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