Hey guy's Karas here, it has truly been some time and I humbly seek advice.

Ok so before we get into why I might be a rat bastard I just want to give you a back round story about myself so you can understand where I'm coming from. when I was young and growing up it seemed as if everyone around me including myself considered me unpleasant to look upon, that's right a ugly duckling if you will. (Not to give you my sad violin story)but, through this I had no confidence,no self respect and was consistently depressed. I could not look into a girls eye's let alone talk to one.

On the other hand my three siblings had no problems interacting with the opposite sex. Guy's act like fool's when it comes to my younger sister who is in collage and has a boyfriend who, is just fixated with her. I once saw a man slam on the breaks of his car in the middle of the street just to try and talk to my older sister. And as for
my older brother, he has slept with literally 30 woman and counting in his lifetime and he's 27.Do you see my frustration. Make no mistake, its not that I was just jealous and didn't want them to have success it's just I wanted it for myself as well.(almost has if it was my birthright) you see my dream has always been to be great with woman to have them in my life as friend's and lovers. It sounds chessy but I would always say to myself things are bad now but one day I would be the guy in club surrounded by beautiful woman and the fact that I'm a man who loves woman (MORE) then the next guy, only fueled my ambition for that lifestyle.

I lost my V card when I was 14 by pure dumb luck( literally in the right place at the right time). Had no girlfriend all through high school.Got my first girlfriend when I was 18 by pure lie's (that lasted a month I wonder why?)

finally I found out about pickup. I said to myself at last my dream will become reality. Struggled with it for about 3 years, I had some successes but they were to far in between. finally found a style of pickup that I really connected with and my game sore to new heights because, in the four months of learning that style I got a girlfriend and we have been together since dec. 2012.

Finally this is where the rat bastard part comes in.She's a beautiful girl a asian HB8 she's fun to be around,treats me good and I do care about her.Now here's the thing (this is going to sound so F@$Ked up) but, she is not my ideal girl or dream girl if you will.I meet my dream girl years ago but, my game just was not strong enough at that point also, I'm conflicted inside.My logical side say's I found something good stay with it, don"t make the biggest mistake of your life.On the other side (which I think is becoming the dominate side) is saying to me, don't settle for good go for great achieve all the dreams you have when it comes to woman have your harem date 9 woman at the same time like your name is neil strauss you only get one life to live.

I just fill like my life is on a basic fixed path you find a good girl you marry her (not that it's anything wrong with that) but I'm not sure if it's for me yet or at all. I love the game I love the fact that it gives a guy maybe not a guarantee but at least a chance to get with any woman and I fill like I never achieved the dreams I had when it came to pickup. And I fill like a douche because if
I go with my illogical side I will end up breaking this loving girls heart.

Some advice would be most appreciated.

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You probably know the expression "the grass is always greener on the other side", which is the feeling you get eventually because you grow bored with what you have. On one hand I think you should appreciate what you have, and in those moments when you feel unsatisfied ask yourself "why am I not happy?". Try really hard to list all the positive things in your life to make sure you are not just being negative and ungrateful. On the other hand, you should always strive to get a better life, trying to get as much out of it as possible.

If I were you I would play it safe. There is nothing wrong in going out and be social while you are in a relationship. All you need to do is to stay on the right side of the line - keep the interactions friendly and (almost) nonsexual. There are subtle ways to communicate lust and attraction to people without crossing the line and look like you are cheating on your girlfriend. It is difficult to describe in text though, but it's all about body language, mimics, eye contact, kino etc.

If you play it right, and you feel like it clicks with a girl you find "better", take it from there and handle it like a responsible man. Tell the new girl that you need to end your current relationship first, before you do anything "stupid".

Good luck!

this is something that most young guys go through. Find a girl that you like and start dating her. realize youre way too young to get married and tied down and feel conflicted feelings until you get married or break up. Most of the time it ends in a break up. Every once in a while its marriage. If you don't feel confident in marrying this girl then end it and keep working on hotter girls. Sounds like you need to sow your oats. She will live. If you break up with her and aren't happy she may or may not take you back. If she doesnt take you back oh well, probably werent gonna get married anyways. If she does, you have more time to "wear the blanket" before you go back to following your testosterone fueled desires.

Mate, if she really was the one, these questions would not be going through your mind. Go for it.

Thanks guy's. I really do appreciate the advice.

So here's what I'm going to do....I've decided to give it a month. 1st out of respect for her and 2nd just to make sure that I'm sure that I really want this. If by july the 31st I still feel this way then I will sit her down and call things off.

Thanks again.

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