Why do i get down on myself for being Cruel or shrewd? Emotionally i feel like i am doing something wrong when logically i know its all good?

My sister is annoying and she is ignoring my polite requests to move out of the way and i have to resort to using Very loud and dominant Tone just to get the massage out that what i want her to move right now i even threaten her a bit. Just so she gets the message she storms off being all mad at the fact that im being a total Jerk then i feel bad with guilt but i know its nothing to feel guilty about ???

Sometimes exerting cruelness to project ones side is needed but then why do i feel guilty ??

Later after the fact i noticed i was worried about her becuase i love her like 5 minutes later and Mystery talks about this and thats the moment to tell her that your worried to get rid of LMR later.

But i wonder about this guilt??

Its very interesting. I can be mean to my sister to prepare her for the future assholes she gonna have to deal with and i wonder if she's preparing me subcosciensly for the MAX HB's im gonna have to face??
and all the tests the'll be throwing at me?? Family Dynamics and Courting and Seduction Dynamics might have some parellels i mean your siblings and parents will try to prepare you for your future in my oppionion. At least to the best of their ability.

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