A friend texts me on Saturday about going to Berghain on Sunday. Berghain, for those who do not know, is a super-famous, totally awesome, partially gay techno club that is open non-stop from Friday night to Monday morning. I am in and I meet him around noon on Sunday there. At first I can't get in, but my friend knows people who work there so I get in after all.

I hang out with my friend a bit. He is a truly awesome guy and we do some Jaegermeister shots, have some beers, then dance. He is gay so this is probably as close to paradise as it gets for him and he disappears after a bit. I later ask him where he was and he tells me "You don't want to know:)". At some point I go to the darkroom with him too. These are rooms that remind one of catacombs. Gay men have sex in there and it's pitch black so one can't see a thing and being in there is intimidating as you don't know what's going on half a meter from you and if you'll bump into a naked man at any second. It's a pretty cool experience though. A lot of these guys are extremely muscular too and masculine. You constantly see groups of four or so Arnold Schwarzenegger-looking type guys, shirts off, dancing with each other, kissing in this animalistic way. A fascinating sight.

So here I am and I feel great and I'm happy and smiling and full of energy. I dance for a bit by myself and then I see this tall, really hot blonde girl who is sitting on the side with her friends and I go there and take her arm and she stands up and I smile at her and say hello. I talk with her for a bit, my arm around her, slightly touching her hand. The energy between us is so good. Perfect. Love this girl. The music is loud so we go to the back and talk. Talking means that the basic questions are asked and I give absurd but really funny answers and I look into her eyes and touch her and I smile and she smiles back. She tells me she has a boyfriend of six years. But she keeps talking to me and I keep touching her. I tell her "We'll need to be secret lovers" smiling looking into her eyes. I stay with her for a while. The kino is totally on and I know I wont fuck her but who cares cause I just love making her laugh and touching her and she smells so good too. At some point I go look for my friend and I see her again a few times later and each time we smile at each other. In the end I give her my name to add me on Facebook. While I'd certainly would love to undress her and kiss her body and fuck her I just would love to see her again in any case.

Then it's getting towards 4pm and I have a date with this girl I'd met on the subway a month ago. I texted her back then and we had agreed to meet up and then she cancelled and wouldn't respond anymore and I had almost forgotten about her and then she texted me again and wanted to meet up. So we meet at this big square and walk around and then we go to a cafe. She is twenty years old, cute, beautiful eyes, nice smile. We talk about this and that. Even though we get along super well she is quite evasive to my kino. I had remembered that it was the same way when I met her on the subway. (When I shake hands I would always keep holding them for as long as I can, but she withdrew immediately.) We really like each other and there is some attraction, but not all that much. I'm not crazy about her and she is not crazy about me. We talk about relationships a bit, and a lot of the other background shit people talk about. And then I tell myself that I don't need to fuck this girl and I would love to just be friends with her. So then we part and I go back to Berghain.

Berghain again. Loud beats. I walk around, get into the mood again. Then I see this short, cute girl and I sit down next to her. She has short hair, big beautiful eyes. There is great energy between us. She is 32, thinks I'm so young. (I'm 25.) We have great rapport and have so much in common and love touching her hand and back. She tells me 25 is the best age to be and I ask her what life was like when she was 25 and she tells me she was traveling all over the world, working for a film festival and she looks into my eyes and tells me that she was single too. She tells me that if she were younger and single she would love to be with me and she tells me I have the most beautiful smile and then tells me that her boyfriend is here too. He is a nerdy looking guy, a music producer or something, with horn-rimmed glasses, but really great style. I ask her her name and I talk a bit with the boyfriend and I want to include him too cause he feels just a bit threatened by her interest in me and I don't really want that. But somehow he doesn't really get involved in the conversation and I keep talking to her. She is a super interesting woman, great career, been everywhere, great energy. She wants to buy me a drink so we take a shot together. I talk with her for half an hour and then I want to find myself a woman so I leave and give her my facebook info.

I walk around. Almost make out with some girl, but she is not really that hot. Open a few, move on. Then I'm at the main dancefloor again. Dancing, saying hello to people, smiling. Then there is this girl HBBritish. Tallish, very slender, nice boobs, cute face. I go up and say something. I ask her name. She tells me and I can't understand so I tell her to draw it with her hand on my arm. Then I draw mine. All between holding her hand, drawing things on each others arms, whispering, looking into her eyes, smiling. When I whisper something to her I often almost go in for the kiss before and then brush her cheek and whisper to her.

She says something and I can't understand her so I just take her hand and lead her to the corner of the dancefloor where it is a bit quieter. I push her to the wall and at first I want to ask her what she said, but then I just kiss her. I grab her boobs, kiss her neck, ears. She is a good kisser. This all is maybe five minutes into meeting her. I make out and my hand finds the way into the back of her pants and she is moaning as I touch her boobs and I take her hand and put it on my cock. I am fingering her, and she is so wet and we're making out, her hands finds the way into my pants, rubbing my cock. After ten minutes or so I take her hand and tell her we're going downstairs. She is worried about her friend and says she can't leave and I tell her that I promise to bring her back soon. She is happy about this and we move through the dancefloor and go down the stairs.

We go to the bathroom. The stalls are all busy so we wait outside. I'm still fingering her, she is rubbing my cock. I'm talking dirty to her. She tells me she can't wait to put my cock into her mouth. A few people are watching as we're almost having sex in the line to the bathroom but this is Berghain so no one cares. After ten minutes or so a stall opens and we go in and she opens my pants and takes my cock into her mouth and I tell her what a naughty slut she is and she is sucking my cock and doing a damn good job at it. She wants me to come over her face, but I kind of want to fuck her too, so I put on a condom turn her around and fuck her hard. We fuck for maybe fifteen or twenty minutes all the time I'm talking dirty to her and she is moaning so hard and then I come. She sucks off my cock one last time and we make out for a bit. She keeps thanking me and I tell her it was all my pleasure to fuck her and she is "No, no. It was MY pleasure!"

We leave the bathroom and go back upstairs and she is worried about her friend but then finds her and we dance for a bit next to each other and she occasionally looks at me and has this smile on her face. But at this point fatigue is hitting me and it is coming on heavy. I feel exhausted and she goes for a smoke and tells me she'll be back and I would like to wait for her and say goodbye but I'm so fucking tired that I leave. I walk out and there are a few women that are cute on the way and at any other point I would talk to them but my fatigue is overwhelming and all my sexual energy is depleted and so I go and I walk outside and it is 8pm, dark already and I walk past the industrial buildings to the subway and then home desiring nothing more than to type this up and resign into my warm bed for a deep, long sleep.

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