| This is defenitely one of my weirdest and most intense sexual experiences, but I think it holds a lot of lessons to be learned as well so here goes:
In the summer at a major festival I number closed a girl, but did not run enough game, I texted her a few times, but she flaked.
In december. I saw her again at a local bar, just passing each other by. I took her arm and said "the bar is dull, lets get out of here!". The next day I realized it was her and we texted.
We texted for almost 3 weeks. She really used texting as a bitch shield and way to give recieve IOI's or IOD's. Really weird. I told her its more fun to have phone call, but needed another 4 days and like 10 texts to arrange the call. She is a busy girl. We had a nice phonecall and I tried to arrange a meet with her. We agreed to go out on the day before new years eve.
We went to the city and had to walk for about 30 minutes before we were at a bar that was available. We talked some and I got the feeling she was pretty weird. She had all this compulsive stuff like not allowing herself to cry, not allowing herself to jaywalk, etc, etc. But it was also cute.
She tried everything, shittests, saying she was going to her friends and leave me in the bar. But I passed them all and did compliance test on her too. When I grabbed her hand in the bar she said: "not here", and I said: "I understand. " Just like Mystery taught us haha.
After drinking and dining for about 6 hours it was time for us to get to the bus and go home. In the bus I kiss closed her. She was a little reluctant, but I didn't care.
On texts later on we agreed we had a good time and the texting got even more playful and sometimes she would make jokes about wanting to have me in her bed, because it was so cold.
New years day, I went out with some friends, but it was lame. So I was home around 11 at night. She texted me she was going to a party. We kept texting and I got the feeling that she was bored over there. She was also drunk. At 2 PM I told her that I would like see her when she was home, if she liked it. Weird enough she did.
So when she got home drunk after the party at 3 I arrived at 3:10 totally sober. I gave her some water and I drink some wine as we sat on the couch. We kissed a little, but it was nothing sexual. I just assumed I was sleeping over and didn't even mention anyathing. Around 4:30 we went to bed.
It was nothing sexual at first, we just lay there with our underwear on. She said she wanted to sleep. But as we curled up against each other, our bodies told us not to sleep... I took it real slow. She was sensitive about everything... Just weird... I will try to explain.
I would caress her whole body. Just standard foreplay. She enjoyed it. I start rubbing her when she still has her panties on. She enjoys it. I push my finger in. All of the sudden she screams: "enough!" And hits my hand away.
I was startled, but knew what to do. I froze her out. I turned my body away from her. As if I felt rejected and just wanted to go to sleep. She immediately grabbed my shoulder and said she need me against her. Then I just repeated the whole foreplay routine until we both took our underwear of. I mounted her and f-ed her. It was great. She was a petite girl, and that was a first time for me... I'm a pretty tall guy and I ussaly attract tall or bigger women. What a change of experience haha! It was great. After the sex we were dead tired and we fell asleep.
In the morning she got some tea for us. In the shimmering of the morning sunlight I could see her perfectly 10 ass and slim naked body. I was completely happy haha. We cuddled some more. Got naked again and the petite girl mounted me, but F-ed me like I was run over by a freight train.
After I came she just lay flat on my chest, kind of out of breath. Then we had this weird conversation:
Bucc: hey look me in the eye for a sec (I just think its nice to keep eyecontact after sex and compliment each other)
HBpetite: No!
Bucc: What's wrong?
HBpetite: Nothing!
Bucc: Did you enjoy it?
HBpetite: Yeah sure, whatever!
She was obviously not good at this. I was baffled. Who would show such behavior in bed! It confused me. She hit the shower afterwards and I asked her to keep the shower running, so I could get in after her. I did this so we could have an intimate kissing moment as we were both naked and we had to switch our spot in the bathroom/shower room. When I stood in front of her and tried to caress and kiss her she freaked. She screamed that it was too much touchy feely and kissing for her and I should buzz off. WTF?
Under the shower I thought: "shit, freeze out time. What the hell is this? ". So I freezed her out during breakfast and this was successful. She would put her legs on mine. Started caressing me again. But it completely confused me. I asked her what I did wrong, and she said that i was to kissy, touchy feely and it freaks her out. On the other hand she did enjoy, so... We said goodbye and texted some more. Everything was OK.
The aftermath...
Still baffled at work the next week. And I was feeling totally in love. Fuck! I was like having nausea and concentration problems. Feeling depressed. What the fuck... I knew these were hormones at work, but it's like harddrugs or something, wow. I haven't had the sensation since two years. I hated it for 2 weeks, especially cause we didn't see each other. I read on the internet that your brain actually produces stress hormones for punishing you for not being with your spouse... Sometimes nature is just cruel, even to us intelligent pick up artists haha.
I googled on "disliking intimacy" or "not being able to communicate intimacy"' . Stuff like that: I got on pages about people having relationships with autistic people. Then it all made sense, the compulsive behavior on virtually all aspects of her life, the wicked division between IOI's and IOD's even just before, during and after sex. I was astonished. The website actually said that it is impossible to have a long lasting relationship, because the autistic partner does not know how to show you that you are appreciated... this will wear you down. It's like an everlasting freeze out with someone that has sex with you and kisses you whenever he or she sees fit. Weird.
Anyway. Whilst being battered by an unleashing of hormones. That latterly came pouring out of some weir that had been broken. It totally affected my game:
I had to wait two weeks until she was back from a holiday. Texting was minimized. I tried to up the pace a bit when she returned. But she only seldom responded enthusiastically. I knew that if I would push it, it would be AFC and she would probably lose interest. I should just play it cool and stay patient. Even if she would arrange a date and cancel afterward... She actually did this, but I lost it.
Just after the text I immediately rang her. She didn't answer of course. Then we texted again. She was getting pissed. I told her i didn't care and she should just ring me and say what's up. She said she would at 11 PM. At 11:30 PM she text me and says I should go to sleep. I created an ultimate AFC message saying that she is avoiding me and that if she doesn't want me anymore she should just say so. I totally called her out on her behavior.
00:14 AM. She calls me. Says nothing. I asked her if she understood the message. We talked things over. A long story short. I disliked the communication. And she is just a very busy girl, wants to be with me from time to time, but doesn't want to commit seriously, and definitely not right away. So far so good. But I had one problem. She clearly stated that the way I behaved over the phone and the last 10 text had her getting annoyed and lose interest. So I questioned after the phone call on how to handle this. This all happened tuesdaynight.
I decided to freeze her out for a while and only just today did I text her that I thought our chat was good and some other blabla. She texted me back within 10 minutes... so I think the game is on a gain.
This was one of the best pick up experiences yet, I learned that a F-close is not the end. You have to stay focused all the way... Hopefully I will get some more taste of that freight train running over me!
Greetz
Bucc.
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