This is an older report i want to bring out to you guys, as i forgot to post it. It reminds me of the minset i should be in right now. I'm fucking things up, however, by drinking excessively lately which fucks with every area of my life.. Enjoy the report!

Lay # 31

Start of the night
I decided not to drink this night. But soon as i enter our pre-drink location i'm like fuckit! We laugh, drink, play games and relax until we've gathered enough courage to go out. The venue is close tonight. There's a party right next to my house. Two days ago i had my first tinderdate that resultad in pretty much instant sex. There's no doubt in my mind i'll get layd tonight so i don't even bother.

We enter
Buy drinks, chill out, joke around. After 30-40 min in we start to interact with girls. Beginning of the night this mostly means fucking around and joking. No intention of kissing/pulling. That means lifting girls up out of nothing. Or approaching two girlsfriends talking, wrap your arms around them, look them in the eyes and ask if they like girls, then wait....... Just a lot of chody messing around. This is what loosens me up usually. A girl i know now grabs my neck and we start to dance. She has a boyfriend and i know that. Just to fuck around i tell her i have a crush on her since the first day i know her. She believes me and i ramain silent. I think what i do at this point of the night is testing intemacy and tension. Before me and her split up i grab her face and kiss her on the mouth. Just a lot of provocation. After a lot of bladybla more drinks with my buddys i decide it's about time to get a bit more serious.

The girl i happen to take home.
I and my friends are dancing as one girl points in the direction of my friend. (They know him) i notice their attention and take a big step towards them. One of the girls now turns around. My friend joins me and he tells me i can take her. Which one i ask him? He points at the one looking at us. I tell him NO! The girl with her back towards me is the one that noticed me but is intimidated by me. He tells me he's not sure.
I tap her on the back and wait for her to turn around. As she looks at me this gigantic smile appears on my face and i stick out my hands loosely. She grabs my hands and we start to dance.

The kiss
We dance a lot as she's a good dancer. I decide it’s time for the kiss and i grab her face and move in. She teasingly declines which gets me more interested and makes me decide she's the one for tonight. 5 min later i move in again. She still declines. I get her to the periphery of the room and start to talk to her a bit more. I lean back to a table and talk. Again she declines my kiss which put me out of balance this time. We dance and i try to feel horny instead of anxious. My eyes close a bit and i loosen up. As i lean back to the table we kiss gently. She’s hesitant so i stop short after. I'm not that easy, you can’t take me home tonight, jist grab another girl! I know just what to do. Simply stay with her and all her objections will disappear. I tell her i would've taken another girl already if i wanted to, so no thanks! After some chatting i grab her hand and move towards the entrance. Let's go i tell her. As we're almost outside her objections fire again. I'm not going with you so you might as well grab someone else. I'm off balance now, take her hand and walk back in with her. I look her in the eyes kinda mad and then relaxed again. So no sex for me tonight right? No, she tells me. Thats ok! i tell her. Gawd you got me, i tell her, i want to fuck you. I accept the possibility of not having sex which loosens me up completely. In the back of my mind though i know i will still fuck her. We chit chat and grab a drink. We meet my friends and hers. Her gf's are interested in me since I’m quite loose at this point. As I’m talking to her gf's she starts to talk to a random guy. This is on!!! Girls do this all the time to get themselves back in state. Me talking to her gf's probably made her jealous. She returns as expected. The party ends and we grab her jacked. I know she'll go home with me but in my head we're just getting the jacked.

Outside
Outside i tell her; let's go there....that’s where i live. She stops in front of my place. I'm not going with you i told you that. I reply; come let's grab some Thea. How do i know you if you will let me go after. I reply; as soon as you enter I’ll give you a huge kitchen knife which you can stick in-between my ribs if i don't. We enter my place. I put her on the couch give her a blanket. make the Thea etc. We chat around and listen to music. BTW from the moment we entered she was fucked. No girl can cancel at this point. After 30 min i say; let’s go horizontal, do you have to get up early. She's in massive doubt and i notice. I remain silent as i get my teeth brusher. She's silent all the way so i look at her get my tooth brush out of my mouth and say casually; hey i can get you to your bike if you want, thats ok. This opened up the possibility of canceling still and therefor she decided to stay longer. We lay down in bed and i'm chill. I make her xxxl Horney but i can’t get in her pants. I tell her i can't sleep without getting off. Well just go to the bathroom and jerk off, she replies.

Sex
I go to the bathroom, put on the tap and try to jerk off. But that b'*#ch just crushed my ego soo hard i can't get it up. I pretend i got off and lay down again with my back towars her. 100% of the time girls don't like you being distanced so they will initiate. She touches me and i turn back to her. I make her Horney again and this time i get in her pants. Even though i'm in i don't move to her clit instantly. NO i touch her inner thighs and tease her like helllll!!!!!!! She deserved this!! She moans and tells me i'm teasing too much. My finger touches her wet pussy lips gently. i go up to her clit. My finger starts up high and moves down. I than lift my finger up and start up high again. This is the max tease move. Her head moves back further in the pillows and her moaning becomes more intense. I go to her g-spot and stimulate that knob until she squirts all over my bed. WTF she shouts as she tell's me she never squirted before. I can still fuck you right; she’s wetterdywett and i ride her for a good 40 min in about every rhythm and position. She didn't want doggy at first so i decided i'll have to finish her in doggy. I put her face down on my bed and slam her perfectly round ass from behind as i stimulate her clit. In her ear i tell her stories about girls licking her clit and breasts while i fuck her.

She’s now officially in love with me

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