Okay guys so I went out on Friday and nothing happened. So I made it my objective to open a few sets last night. We all went out (bank holiday weekends are normally insane, but last night was quiet!) and had a few drinks. Unfortunately the drinks are so expensive I tend to go from being tipsy in the bar to sobering up in the club. We were the first people on the dancefloor in Oceana and some girls danced near us. I spun one of them around and briefly danced with her. She tried to talk to me, but the music was far too loud.

I'm not short on female attention and I've had plenty of girlfriends and one night stands, but I have MAJOR approach anxiety. Unfortunately this one girl went home early I think because none of us saw her again.

I keep trying to make excuses and I hate it. I spike my hair up but it's quite long right now which I feel looks a bit silly, but that is no excuse.

About 5 weeks ago I kiss-closed 5 girls in the same club so I know I can do it but I knew more people who were out that night so I felt more comfortable. A sort've insurance policy if you get me?

I'm just so angry and frustrated with myself. I fear the worst before I even attempt it and overthink every situation. I think "she's going to tell me to fuck off" and I can't seem to follow the 3-second rule. I just freeze up!

This isn't my home town so I've always had issues with it not being my comfort zone, but it's been a few years now and I finally have a social circle so this can't really be an excuse.

My next field test will probably be next Friday or Saturday. Things MUST change!