Field Report, Mesh.

The SPAM, I got there and had a beer, I did not feel so out of place but did not initiate any conversation pretty much at all that night. I told some guy the shorts story but by the time I was finished his attention was gone. After my beer I hit the dance floor and stayed there for most of the night. I am a pretty good dancer because I am confident and enjoy it. I try to move my body and experiment, with mixed results...

The girls, I tried to make conversation w/ a 7 while waiting for the bathroom. As soon as I tried an opinion opener she snubbed me HARD. I am not too sure why as I was not really coming on very strong. It was my first experience with a heavy bitch shield, very rude actually. On the dance floor I was getting a lot of attention from some girls and they fucking loved me “THATS THE BOY, THATS THE BOY!” If I heard the correctly... At one point the group tried to dance with me and for the first time in my life I had this thought, “girl, you don’t have what it takes to be with me”. Of course I would have loved to fuck her but they were sticking in a pack and doubting themselves hard. It was not very sexy. I owe Kit for that thought as she brought something out of me, both good and bad.
After not getting let in the other club and doing the rounds I walked into an 8 and a 9. They would be my first and last sarge of the night. I played the perfectly, opening with a time constraint and an opinion that was passed over (they came back to it). I negged the hotter one as she was talking shit so they invited me to go with them to mesh. Guaranteeing my safety... I did not try too much material on them or all night really mainly because I don’t have too much. I don’t freak out when talking to girls and can maintain the principles like not pecking and having good tonality and body language. When it comes to creating a sexual state and energy communication I kind of fall behind, I can tackle that by getting more material under my belt.

IMPORTANT: Don’t shout out WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! At any time unless there are several others doing it, it only creates a void between me and anybody who is not feeling that, uh. Good.

Also, I need to work on getting an IOI like they eye and successfully opening. I don’t really like opinion openers so much unless the situation is perfect, if I can find a different kind of opener I will be using it a lot. They do come off as kind of beta as I am asking something of a girl already, that shows intention hard!

Myself, I raced a car on the way there, it was intense. I have so much energy and it got me out and took me home (the hug thing). It is one of my greatest assets and if I can direct and control it productively I will never have anything to worry about for the rest of my life. If not I may find myself causing vandalism or tying girls up on a first date. Or dancing to death... Now that I know I have no limits I do not have to focus on pushing them. I need to take things as they progress for now and focus on leading later on. This is the girls game right now and I am breaking into it, take a back seat if you have too. As long as you are out there and trying to learn you will learn.

Conclusion, It was very easy going out and dancing; if I had the right clothes on I could have hopped a bit from club to club. It was nice talking to people and they seemed to be more receptive and loosened up as the night went on. I don’t like all the kino and “man” “hey bro” stuff between guys as I feel I am qualifying myself. Hell, I am and I don’t like it.

Fuck, This shit is hard, I will win this game or die trying. All or nothing, yeah that’s me, it’s my other greatest asset. I can do anything, I want to be the best PUA in the world, I want to get into the SAS as well. If I do not be the best Alex I can be I will be unhappy and kill myself eventually. I have fears that I will have to overcome and taboos I will break, people will not like me for what I do. If I let other people’s opinions dictate my actions I may as well kill myself now.

This is getting real, I hope you all are having as much fun as I am!

And as many bad times too...