I just came back from day 2 with this hb8,5. I really wanted to make her my LMR, and that's where I lost her already. Whenever I get first bad reaction, I kinda freeze. I know the #close wasn't that solid and I didn't have a lot of kino going the night I closed her (2 days ago), and when me met today I wanted to go arm in arm, but she just said no. And I'm like Fuck, this isn't going well and I'm not sure what's the best way to punish her for this. So after the awkward silence while we go to the bar, we sit down, I try to reframe the whole thing by saying This sucks. When I met you I had this great feeling, and now, this is just fucking awkward. This helped and we got into the conversation, I had her attention, but not the attraction. No kino, no negs, no nothing. Just me talking comfort stories, DHVing, bla bla. I do her cube and some other stuff she relates to, she likes it, but at one point she says she can't figure me out. She says something's missing inside me, that i pretend i am happy when actually i'm not, basically that i'm full of shit. All true, but i dont want her to see that. I fucking blushed at this point. So we spent like 2 hours in there, went out and parted with casual see ya (never) and no kino what so ever. And in the bus on my way home, I feel so fucked up, I decide not to go out tonight and stay home with my tail between my legs. I needed some validation and ive immediately texted other ltr. The thing is I know all the mistakes i made. and i was my fault. She was hot, I was afraid to lose her and off course I lost her. Now it hurts... And with my other (and only) ltr who is not as nearly hot as this girl from today I do all those things. Negs, disqualification... Also, two days ago in the bus I see this HB9 girl from college who was always super cold to me. I game her and in 5minutes I get ddbl and I could have kissed her. My friend who was there and saw the whole thing was like that was game. but it's still hit and miss. And it fucking hurts when I miss.

please comment on this (im so fucking needy right now!!!!). i know the sun will shine tomorrow, but tonight i still feel so down.

Heads up mate .
Been there, done that, probably most of the guys here. It's not the first or the last time.
But you got valuable experience, and that's what important. For all of us. With every exeperience we improve our game.

So, no reason to be depressed .

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Everybody lies.

actually, im already feeling better. still not good enough to go out sarging tonight though.

you are right. exposure is all i need.

I forgot the funniest thing that happened today. She calls and tells me she'll be late and im like should i let her get away or not. So i go into a perfume store nearby where a friend (hb9) works and I borrow her assistant (another hb9) to be there with me when my target arrives. Assistant doesnt understand the whole jealousy plotline thing but agrees to play along. It was really funny.

Another thing. I just talked to my wing and we kinda found solution for that whole initial NO to arm in arm. Something like "What? You came to see me. You're in my world right now. And in my world that (arm in arm) is pretty innocent. It doesn't mean I want to sleep with you, but it also doesn't mean I am gonna bring that cold attitude. So we can try to go along this path and see where it goes, or we can part right here. I have things to do, anyways."