I had 6 months without sarging during the stupid miiltary training. I took some rest afterwards and last weekend I came back in the field. I knew it wasn't going to be easy at first. So I went out 3 nights in a row dressed like the money and having HB9 pivot in my arm. And I only open 2 sets during those 3 days. I had tons on social proof, had all eyes on me, but was still a failure. I was just paralized with fear. But you can't ever give up on yourself, so I deicided to go back to the start. And I'm taking next 2 weeks just practicing the opening, and small chunking the knowledge like Style says. Tonight I went out alone. I had hard time solo sarging in the past, but I realized that I have to make it happen, not pivots, not anyone else. Me. That guy Chopper6 really inspired me to make it happen. And so I went out dressed cool, listening to Slipknot on my mp3 player, and felt great. Opened around 10 sets, didn't push it much, but opened every set. And that's it for tonight. It wasn't that hard. But if you don't make that first step you will never make the second. Tomorrow I go out with some guy I met on forum, the day after that with a friend who is natural. Hope I'll soon get my form back.