| 2010-01-22 through 24, Friday through Sunday
Fri: MoMA, Meatpacking; Whisp, Rufio, Doc
Sat: Cheap Shots; Tempus, Doc
Sun: Sway
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Friday sucked. 12 approaches. I AAed out and by night time was feeling sick - probably more mentally than anything.
Saturday was Tempus' birthday at Cheap Shots.
PU-wise, the place was target poor. I did 11 sets, hooked a few, but did not number close because of my ego problems. Instead, the girl number closed me because I told her about a private party at Tribeca Grand. Later, Doc and I reopened the set and she invited us to a party at 3rd Step.
Tempus takes the party to Greenhouse, but neither Doc nor I can afford a $20-30 cover, so we bounce. On the way home, we decide to try our luck at 3rd Step. The bouncer does not let us in because we do not have the name for the private party. Total bust.
Sunday:
Rufio, Dark Nes, and I hit up our Sway at 10:30. No one is around, so we chill, dance a bit. Dark spies an Asian two set across the way. He tends not to do Asians, so I do it. "Hey, you guys look fun," Dark tells me to say.
I walk up, sit down, and open with that line. "We're a little bored sitting over there waiting for things to heat up. Join us and talk a bit." They comply.
Rufio chats up Tall while Dark Nes and I chat up Small. The conversation is going well and I am escalating, but then I try to get them to dance and they refuse. Dark dances with two girls, then a few minutes later, he pulls one of them up to dance. The venue is heating up, but I am feeling chody because of the refusal. I move around and open a set or two, but nothing sticks. I come back and dance with the girls. Dark and Rufio dance with both girls where as I just keep my distance. I feel that the girls are starting to realize I have lost my balls and it just paralyzes me. The whole night is very painful.
To make matters worse, around 11:00, Neko calls. "It has been a long time," she says. She wants to see me again. I tell her to come to my place tonight, but she says she is tired. She commutes very far everyday and does not have much time to sleep, so that's fine. She is finishing her work, though, and will hopefully soon be working in Manhattan again. Still, I am disappointed.
Around 12:30, Dark bounces and number closes one of the girls. I immediately try to number close and the girl just turns away. I leave after that feeling absolutely terrible, wanting to quit PU, wondering why I'm doing all this stuff, and all those negative thoughts. On a separate plane of emotion, however, I am happy. I know that this is the feeling of my ego giving way to a more realistic self.
Dark suggested that I stop putting a minimum on my daily approaches and that I concentrate on mid-game now. I would agree, but the past three days have been tough in terms of approaching. I still need to do it, but now I will put more emphasis on results in the way of five number closes per day.
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