I am reflecting on how much growth i have experienced the past few months, years even when i decided to get the social aspect of my life handled ( my success with women has gone through the roof lately, my whole identity has changed for the better). And for some random reason today, i remembered a particular failed field report. I was out with a couple of buddies. We went out clubbing and had a good time. We walked to a convenience store about a block or two away from the club afterward. We were going to call a cab for a ride home. I was the leader of the pack etc. and i noticed a hb9 at the payphone ( was surprised she was by herself). I started chatting her up and recommended we all split a cab together. While in the back of the cab, the HB9 sat next to me and i was flirting and gaming her up. She moved her legs so that they were turned in my direction and pressed up against my right leg and hip. Seeing as this story happened a couple years ago, i was still a somewhat clueless AFC. I didn't realize what a huge IOI that was.

Long story short, when i was dropped off at dorms (me and my buddies lived there and we were dropped of before the HB), i just got her number and went to my room. If i knew what i know now back then, i am convinced i could of easily gotten her up to my room and fucked her. As most of you can assume, getting her number and calling her the following Monday, i was fluffed off and blown out. Any kind of connection or attraction she had for me disappeared because i failed to be a man and act accordingly the night i met her. She wanted to be fucked, and my wussy subconscious sabotaged me. My fear of success at the time preventing me from doing what was natural for "players". I hope this was interesting and/or helpful for anyone out there reading this!

lol i feel ur pain(depression and self esteem issues held me back) we learn from our mistakes

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up
I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work
~Thomas Edison

AFC (little to no game) + Opportunity (with HB) =

What could have, should have, would have; is all theoretical.. now you can manifest! Now you can Make it happen!