I went out tonight to our normal spot and invited a girl that I used to date from high school and her friend to the bar. The girl I used to date has fallen in love with me according to her twice in the past 10 years. Once when we were together and once when we were supposed to just be friends with benefits. So we start hanging out a little bit again and haven’t done anything and she’s always telling me about all these guys she’s talking to. I have no problem with it. I just keep her around because she has hot friends. The friend she brought tonight was a high 8. So we’re sitting at a 4 top and I’m sitting next to the ex that I will start referring to as 7. I’m wearing black so I take her girly bug eyed sunglasses and put them on. My buddy grabs the other girls pair and puts them on. We start taking pictures and I wind up getting some good pre-selection shots for my myspace. Then they are talking about how their lip gloss cools their lips. They have me put some on and I just dab it because I don’t want my lips all shiny. Then 7 says here just kiss me. I did. It was just a peck. I looked at the 8 who was sitting across from me and said I took all hers and I still don’t feel it cooling, do you mind? She kissed me. It was a peck as well. We continue talking when 7 says that one of her guy friends is coming up there. I was thinking “cool, he will occupy 7 while I game 8. Nope. I go to the bathroom because I feel like I’m becoming outcome dependant and trying to hold my position sitting next to 8 too tight. I then talk to some friends who were in the other section of the bar with shuffleboard and pool tables. I go back in the room and the guy brought a friend and he’s sitting next to my girl!! I freak out on the inside and talk to my buddy who is a natural and he says you better get your ass over there and start talking to the dudes. DUH! Why didn’t I think of that? I knew better but I let my emotions get in my way. My inner AFC was coming out. I pull up a chair and start talking to them. I look at 8 and say hey you wanna go shoot pool? She agrees but when we get in the other room the 2 tables are full. She goes back in the other room. I decide to make a round and talk to my friends again. I start texting in front of her and she comes up to me and asks me if a table opened up yet. I said I’ll get us one. We went in and one was already open. So I think I have control again, well the other fucks follow us in there. By then I’m starting to get mad and I keep on thinking “overcome the obstacles”. I’m pretty sure at some point the 7 told her not to mess with me because we used to date. I feel myself getting long winded here but to make a long story short I got her # and got 2 more pecks. I used the “do you want to kiss me?” setup. I still wasn’t satisfied. I let my emotions completely get the best of me and my inner AFC almost came completely out. Had it not been for my friend I think it would have. I also went back and forth with the mind frame of not being outcome dependant. BUT!!! I was out in the field, and proved to myself that this stuff works as long as my inner AFC is silenced. I am hanging out with 2 different girls tomorrow one of which I’ve had some comfort with. I think I’m gonna take it easy tomorrow and just have fun.

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