| Ok so quick background on this chick, known her since college, decided to stick around as friends. Shes been fairly on and off about her interest in me, but lately shes been hitting me up to hang out. Saturday she called me to go hang out with her, her boyfriend, and some other friends. So I go, we are hanging out just as friends, I knew she had a bf I wasnt really looking to mess that up. We are having a lot of fun. Somewhere along the line, she seems to be paying a lot of attention to me, and not her bf! I am trying to converse with the guy, he seems cool, but she... doesnt seem into him. So were at the fair riding rides, being silly, and somewhere along the way I notice the BF is starting to feel insecure, holding a large long bag of kettle korn to his crotch and telling me "sorry man but im bigger than you" to which I play along with, other stuff.
So during one of these conversations toward the end of the night I am talking to the BF and some other friends and she starts tickling me and totally GRABS MY TITS in front of the BF while we are talking! I am still in the oh we are still just friends mindset up until this point, but now I am like dude wtf, that was way too obvious and the guy already seems to be bothered, wouldnt she tone it down? Well I try to stay cool with the guy pointing out good stuff he does and why I think hes cool. Later we make a bathroom run, and I am good cause I went earlier and the BF goes to the bathroom. Now this is where it gets unmistakable. The girl turns to me away from the bathrooms with a big smile on her face and says, whispering, "do you want to kiss me?" I am shocked. Clearly I must be hearing things. I blink and ask "what" she says it again. I just blink. She says it a third time. I still cant believe what I am hearing. There is a band playing nearby and she is whispering so after the third time she says louder " you probably cant even hear me lol" and the BF gets back.
Well we start walking to my car so I can drive them to their car in a different lot and we are talking about the new place I am moving into and how cool it is, and right in front of everyone she asks if she can move in! I am kinda shocked at what is going on this whole night. I play it like I am not noticing anything, just telling everyone about how cool the place is and how I wanna have some awesome college parties. I am talking to the BF too, we seem on cool terms. I take em to their car and thats that for the night.
Now today I went to go talk to the inspector at the new place and I brought her with me cause she lives like right down the street. We check the place out together then go back to her place. She mentions no ones home. I ask if I can come in for a bite to eat and she makes me a burrito. We sit and talk about this and that, all the while I am getting closer for some kino. Now here is where I am not sure if its getting obvious or if shes just crazy and all these things I thought were signals really were not. She tells me about a time she went streaking. I tried to play it cool, couldnt think of a way to turn that into a move I could make. We start talking about music we like, listening to some songs she plays. I suggest the song "where is my mind" and as it plays I feel like I am obviously checking her out. When the song is done, she plays a song called rape me by nirvana, wtf?. Shes like talking about it, and we start talking about kurt cobaine, who I didnt actually know much about.
Now as far as kino I start with some incidental stuff, she shows me a cut on her chin that was an accident and says she likes to play with it. She is rubbing it, and I reach out to feel it and I notice shes kinda been thrusting her lips forward. As I am rubbing her chin I kinda have a super brain fart, I know I am supposed to make a move here but I cant think of what. then ask about some of the scars on her arm, she shows them to me (she used to cut) and explains she likes pain. I ask if she has ever been bitten on her arm and she says no, I ask how much does she think she can take and gently stretch out her arm, intent clear. I bit her, and I start doing it harder, she can actually take a lot! I am rubbing her arm, asking if it hurts, if shes ok, she says yea shes ok. We start talking about other places she likes pain, her back, her neck. I ask if she has ever been bitten "right there" a spot on her neck. She bends her head over. I lean in and bite it. I have done this before and know a few good nerve centers. I can feel her writhing at the bite. I start pulling her into it, starting to get handsy...
Aaaaand she starts pulling away. She mentions she felt like she had gone too far, she was concerned about her BF. I gave her the shpiel I heard from Johnny Sopporno, and she came back with something about her cheating on someone before made her cut. Oh. Well. Maybe she shoulda thought about that before she was asking for a kiss saturday or I was biting her arm or her neck. She asks if I left a mark on her neck, and I look at it and its not sooo bad, could pass as a rash or something. She asks if we are gonna be friends, and I say of course! I wont tell anything about this to anyone. Its just between us, it doesnt count. She needs to pee. I wanna move forward but... I dont want her to feel like I am trapping her. I clear an obvious path for her to go to the restroom and she does. When she comes back, shes all awkward. I ask her how shes feeling, kinda in her space, I wanna get things moving forward again but I dont know how. Its over anyway, she says she feels uncomfortable. Fak. I kinda lean back and open my hands to the side, saying she can tell me to do anything. I remember she said she likes scratches on her back, so I do it and she says I need to stop, so I do. Well, theres a bit of an awkward moment. She walks outside to her car. I follow her, but I wanna keep a clear distance, I dunno if I should press forward or fall back. Shes looking for an excuse to get away, finding some random cd in her car. I tell her maybe its best if I go, and she says ok. I get a decent hug, and go to my car. She kinda gives me a sidelong glance as I start my car. There is a pang of regret there, a bit of longing. I feel like I could have got somewhere, but I dont know how to do this. Live to fight another day I suppose.
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