Hey everyone, you can call me Kev, and this is the first entry in my journal.
- Why did i decide to make a journal?

I just need a place to put my thoughts down. I need clear goals and a way to help me remember what they are.

A little background info on myself: Turned 20 this year. Little experience with girls (no sex and only some makeouts, mostly under influence of alcohol). I have a social circle mainly consisting of guys, some more interested in having fun and going out than others. I feel like my life is at a hold. I am doing something productive, but at such a slow pace. I want to get better at taking initiative, as I am the only one able to make things happen in my life right now. There are little to no outside forces pushing me in any direction. As i write this i think i should feel empowered by that, but i dont. I can work on this as well.

I live in Norway, and i hope this doesn't discourage you from reading and that you can still relate to my stories, because it's mostly the same as other places even though there are some notable differences like the educational system etc. Right now i am not in school since i work full time, but i have done some home studies and have an exam coming up this 20th.

The focus of my journal and progress will be mainly on these two very broad fields: Getting more comfortable hooking up with women and building a more attractive lifestyle. In the end i want to have more to offer than just myself.


While dreams and goals are subject to change, right now I am going to focus hard on these -

GOALS:

- Build a larger Social Circle (guys and girls)
- Escalate faster and smoother with girls. Get better at expressing my desires.
- Get a better idea of things do to around town and how to work these places (the city i live in is not huge)
- Make a better connection with people i already know, through this get more invites to happenings
- Nail future exams. Gonna be hard.

And more to come.

You cant edit your posts here? That sucks... Would like to add some stuff to my first post, but whatever.

After reading some of the posts in other journals i've realised i know so little about game. I've been reading up on this stuff in-depth so much that i dont even know how to begin with the basics anymore.

This week i got time off from work to work for a history exam and just today realised i have the wrong book. Fuck... I also have to nail the drivers license theory test ASAP (tomorrow).

Next week, a girl i have been skyping and chatting with for a good while comes home from a 3 month trip. I've had a hard time keeping things sexual as i hate doing this kind of stuff (i still do online chatting even though i suck hard!).

I doubt she is DTF judging from our last convo, she's also been seeing some other dude while vacating (nothing serious and i dont mind). I've been thinking a lot about how our first meeting up is going to be like and if anyone has thoughts on this or experience on this kind of situation please share your thoughts. Right now if i cant somehow spike her interest a lot before she comes back im just going to play it very cool (she's not too happy coming back here, which makes me feel less of an attraction). Time to shut up about her.

No planned sarging this week as i shouldnt have the time. If i do go out i might do some cold-approaches which i have been getting a lot better at lately. My confidence and inner game is better than ever! Probably because i have never looked so good as now and been in a shape like this (credit to myself for putting in the gym time and working full time with landscaping!)

Going to do more writing when i have something to write about. I also want to add some tasks that work towards my goals.

Sorry i havent gotten around to writing anything here. My gramps passed unexpectedly just after i made this and it's been tough lately. Dealing with a lot of stuff and my head is just not in a good place, but i'm confident i'll get through it. I'm actually thinking i might go to a psychologist to see if getting some stuff off of my chest will help. Any thoughts or experiences on that


MEANWHILE, i did bang a couple of girls! Actually two in one weekend on top of that. Stuff happens fast. All very cute girls like a 6 and a 7, one an 8 at least, if i'm going to rate them. The last one didnt happen at a party or anything, just came over to her place and we hung out into the night and watched a movie, some massages and things just went from there up to the bedroom. (I had trouble getting hard, because of stress and anxiety i think, although i wasnt feeling nervous.. ) I feel really good around that girl and i actually want to see her more and see how things work out between us. I've had some history with one-itis before though and no way in hell am i going down that path with a girl again.

So even though i havent been on this forum since last post there's been a lot of progress. I havent been following a schedule. Like i said i have some personal issues i need to address with seriousness. Childhood trauma and shit.

I've been working my ass off this summer laying bricks and doing man work at my fathers company. He's a real hard-ass and wont let me slack off just because my dad's a boss, it's more the other way around with him saying i have to set a damn good example, which he says i've been doing and im very glad about that. It's a real opportunity though, the workplace. I've been told by him that as long as i can work a full time job i can come to him and get work. He also presented me with a bigger business opportunity and said i could get my own company car and later a position higher up in the company if i did well over the next year. Being only 20 y.o this is huge for me. The thing is that this is not the career i want, so i told him i might take up his offer later if for some reason studies don't work out or i decide to just work. I also told him a little about the trouble i was having outside of work and he said it would be wise to get a grip on that first and take some time off. My dad's a champ.

Might check back in not too long, it feels good to write down some thoughts.

Hello again

These last few months i've had a bunch of thoughts i wanted to post here, but i havent gotten around to it and now it seems like i dont have any intriguing subjects i want to write about..

I was going through kind of a rough-patch in the summer months last year. Just a general feeling of being sad and some minor social anxiety and stress. It seems like something i cant just get rid of through simple exercises. Although spending a lot more time socialising and working out helps.

I think a big problem i have, is that i have great ambitions for myself but if i cant meet my own expectations i just feel worthless. So i need to manage my goals in life, it seems. Gradual improvement, starting "from the bottom".

Enough on that.



I did set some smaller goals in an earlier post. One of them was building my social circle, and i have. I no longer feel an urgency with this since i have a neat bunch of friends. This will forever be a work in progress.

I've started working as a security guard in the weekends. I have nice colleagues and of course work around chicks all the time. I no longer have any approach anxiety, and i dont see sexual escalation as a sticking point at all anymore.


In fall i started a self-study course for becoming a Strength Coach. This was intended just for my own knowledge and interest but can be built on further in the future, like for work as a personal trainer.


I think this will be it for now. Maybe i'll post more frequently now, or maybe i won't.

Anyway, hope i dont bore you too much. If you have questions, tips or anything you wanna say, go ahead.

Also, if it seems like this journal lacks some of the good ol' intrigue of PU it's because i've been with my GF for 3 months now and she is great. Because of this i hardly ever go clubbing (only as the bouncer, ha).

One aspect of PU, Social Value, has popped into my mind not just a few times lately. When people know you have a girlfriend you just get accepted way more easily and girls feel more at ease with you right away. Not that it should surprise me i guess, but it did!

Hallo!


This week me and GF are going to her family's summer house just the two of us. It's a little over an hour drive. Cozy little place by the sea with a surrounding mountain woodland area. I love being out in the woods, it's almost like therapy. It's a special peacefulness.


We're staying for four days at the summer house. "Her reason" for going is that she wants some time off from home (we both live with our families SPAM) and to study. But i'm gonna make sure the second i get a fire going in that hearth, clothes will be dropping and they wont be coming on again in a while!


She will have to study abit though, and i'm bringing some reading material myself. I read books on a regular basis (i dont go to school right now, so why not do something useful). I'm bringing a book on nutrition with some recipes, gonna cook some of that stuff (gotta impress the girls, always!) and one for my upcoming hunter's permit test.

I also read Gambler's "The Natural" a couple of months ago. A pretty good read with some neat techniques both for in-field and for inner game confidence.

Reading books is a great way to learn and also help build an attractive lifestyle. If you're gonna do cool shit you better know something about it.




Some thoughts:

In little over a week GF will be going on a two week trip to the US.

First thing i wanna say is that i approve of this even if i cant go with her. It was also planned before we got together.

I didnt offer it much thought specifically, at first. But then i asked myself a few questions without thinking: "Will she cheat on me if given the opportunity? If tempted by a man?", and "Will i cheat on her?". These came to me somewhat surprisingly but i guess it's only natural (?).

The imagined answers came just as fast. I really dont think she is able to cheat on me right now. The affection i get, and give, is just too great for me to think it's likely at all. She also seems extremely loyal, honest and good-hearted (nice girl, huh? she's also gorgeous, crazy right? ).

Myself, i just feel too honor bound to cheat. I say that because i've already wanted to when i had a decent opportunity but in the end decided not to.


Peace gents, im off to sleep!

Had a nice trip to GF's summer house, made a lot of good food and had a great time away from the city life.

She is now in the US for two weeks. Spring is starting to look good here in the city now, getting warmer and ok to be outside and chill. Went into town and ate some food and saw a movie with friends tonight. Had a good time fooling around.